Black Beatles on the island

Queer

Just got back in the house after filling up buckets of water and toting them into the belly of the beast- aka where the fire behind mine and my neighbors homes are. There are a couple hot spots left but I just doused them in water and hosed/sprayed 🚿 the shit outta those areas and the green vicinity.

This is a continuation of my adventures from yesterday in being an amateur firefighter when your actual one’s aren’t available/around/understaffed etc.

Yeah. Myself and my neighbors had a time from about…I wanna say 6pm yesterday when the wind blew the ā€œsmall bush fireā€ that was 6 houses down, directly behind several of our homes.

& that bitch was mean. I mean…raging at times.

Kinda reminds you of an Aries…or a Taurus if they get to that point 🤬

I digress. Fun night (not at all) but very grateful that we are all safe as well as our homes/property/animals. Give thanks all day.

This post was initially not about me learning the importance of controlled burns and clearing the bush behind your property annually. But yeah no…Lessons acquired.

& I also gotta big up my neighbors because we really all came together and made sure the other was ok and helped water each other’s lawns while the actual fires were being blown closer to our properties and the embers were blowing in the trees, grass, roof…

Ok but…aside from that, here’s why the eff I started this entry:

I read something just now that said, ā€œfind your missing pieceā€ in regards to dating/relating.

& my immediate thought after I rolled my eyes was:

I am my missing piece.

-me

Ain no way ima go around proclaiming and affirming to the Universe that I am incomplete or missing something, if I’m not attached to or coupled with someone. That’s wild as hell. Sounds like some serious spelling tbh; you making an agreement (and lk šŸ”‘ putting a spell on yaself) by thinking and believing that someone else has to complete you. Shit. You gon be searching forever (outside of yourself) for something that you are responsible for;

i.e.

Completeness and wholeness externally

Your own happiness/bliss.

Ngl to you, I been there, too. Could’ve written a book!

But. Give thanks for growth! and learning that was a false premise.

Yeah. That’s all I got, rn. I’m lk šŸ”‘ exhausted from being alert & up all night/morning watching the smoke & bush behind the house.

Nonetheless, I had to take a quick moment to write that last part. Didn’t think I was gonna talk about the first part, tbh. & here we are šŸ˜Ž

Life…is wild. & crazy beautiful. Give thanks.