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Magnum Opus

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Ofc I’m gonna keep talking. Because I’m currently listening to this song on my playlist called:

Romancing the (rose quartz) Stone

& it triggered a core memory of gayness. Story time:

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*also good to remember: In other peoples stories, projections and perceptions of you; you will be a hero to some, & the villain & big bad wolf to others. Try not to take it too personally. We are being perceived from so many angles at times, people forget to search the Source-themselves first. I mean, we play our parts, according to our own awareness right? Lessons & shit we need to learn? Well. Some people are just shitty, horrible people & they’re quite aware of it 😂

Sooo. This:

Artist: dvsn Song: The Line

When I first heard this beautiful ass, long ass song…ine ga lie, my shit was blown 🤯 bc it was so perfectly sung and executed..a piece of my soul felt cracked open. It felt like I was levitating. Also my soft ass (grateful for this placement tho, lk 🔑) Pisces ♓️ rising fell ALL the way in love with the lyrics. The thought & possibility of loving & being loved this thoroughly, openly & deep again..i. Well, back to the song.

The Line. How can you not help but to feel shit upon hearing it? It’s almost haunting, right before he begins the first verse. & that moaning/mumble singing in the background-that longing, an undeniable love that is being boldly proclaimed… Love that stretches from the heavens and extends from the Cosmos, down to where the light will never touch- in the depths of the deepest ocean.

& that feeling continues throughout the entirety of the song. So to say that I played it a million times, would be a lie. It was 2 million 😂

The lyrics…I really can go on about this song forever. But I need to take my ass to bed. So back to the 🏳️‍🌈 memory:

I was invited to a family dinner with a group of us lgbtq folx, thrown by my friend who happens to be an amazing award winning Chef, & her fiancée. The food was being laid out & presented so beautifully & being that her fiancée is also a music head, she decided that it was time to “put us on”.

Me:

I told them that they HAD to hear that song 🎵 that I was currently obsessed with. They indulged me (bc my musical taste is awesome 👅)

I played that track. Everyone stopped what they were doing and sat there. Fast forward a few weeks later & I get a phone call from them both, thanking me for helping them select the perfect song for their wedding (told ya my taste was awesome 😂) & at the actual ceremony when they played the song…it was forever etched into my soul; a song of love everlasting, shared by two souls vowing to embrace, support & love one another…& knowing the love that those two humans have for each other…makes it even more beautiful & meaningful. This song allowed me to witness and be a part of all that magical, radical ass love. Give thanks.

Tings I into x AB 🕊✨

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Dead Poets Society 🕊 ✨

I’m interested in authentic connection… A life filled with an abundance of love, art/music , travel, romance.

And,

Hand written poetry
Fucking your soul into the Cosmos
& co-creating love, to “Say Yes” by Floetry
Midnight soaks in a clawfoot tub
Love letters to, and from my love…

& Writing love letters to life…by simply living & experiencing it. & doing my best to not ever take any of it for granted.

I have such a habit-of digressing. Back to this blessing [Life]

& tings I into

Traveling the world on a foodie & culturally centered type itinerary
Complementary energy;
Easy, like Sunday Morning


Lionel Richie Rich
in love, life, experience
Adventuring, learning & expanding
appreciating every step & every person


Every ting…along this path
Is for my growth and advancement
I like slow meals and a slow dance
Proper romance
That continues to expand 
& blossom
Locally led food tours
10 courses
via 711 horses
Or
Hiking in the jungle, to freshly foraged ingredients
Breaking bread, crossing cultures
Ancestral wisdom & veneration of lineage
Exchanging energy, history, love & community, appreciating (there goes that gratitude again. I’m telling ya, it really changes & shifts shit) but yeah.

🌍 Connection ✨

Collecting memories.
Volunteering, serving, giving back in some capacity, as I visit each country.

No matter what town or city, I’m always grateful to Be.
Thankful to see a new day, let alone a new horizon, perspective, & hemisphere.

Love…is always in my ear
and always in this Air-
Sign
With a water rising
Jupiter approved to make moves
Even through
temporary wipeouts (thanks Saturn) the wave is always smoothe..

Cuz, it’s the peace of knowing I’m always where I’m meant to be
& Doing what I’m meant to do.

Acknowledging that change is the only constant
& happiness, love, peace, bliss, etc. comes from within
+
You are your own Hero & Saviour-it’s up to you whether you sink or swim
Good
In Frank Oceans
Know Thyself:
I am the medicine, I am the spell, I am the potion

I am the Source
& aligned with Source?

The force (alignment + magick ✨) is strong in this one.

& living life to the fullest, on my own fucking terms 🤟🏿

The ruin..of many a poor Boi

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& God

I know I’m one

-The House of the Rising Sun

I’m talking bout Karmic relationships, karmic ties, soulmates, etc. Yeah. All dem, lolol

Has been the…well I wouldn’t say my ruin, but the stress, the drama 🎭 and extra shit that’ll have you like:

The heartache and heartbreak; which is, tbh, sometimes self inflicted when we exaggerate someone’s presence and their place in our lives- yeah, been there, not doing that again.

Or, when we make these temporary lessons in passing…our forever person.

Your everything was sposed to simply be the thing that reminded you not to follow the same path or patterns.

We, drawn to our karmic past lifetimes like a magnet, attract these folx and get into romantic relationships with them, when they was sposed to just be the lesson, or a even a reminder, personified.

We really should’ve just kept it cool, kept it cute & kept it pushin- & not have romantic or sexual (did you know there’s something called sexual soulmates? Thought that was cool) ties to them this go round.

Merry. And Mary.

Twin Flame/Karmic Lover/Ex Forecast: Circles and cloudy.

A time. Once again, Mercury rx is almost fully upon us. Ask for clarity. & discernment, bby.

Roy, Mary, Airy

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Life is amazing. I mean, of course it’s not perfect.

I have my very human moments of overthinking, anxiety…have you seen (been living in) the state of the world? Depression. Relationships with people you love dearly that need adjustment, or disengagement. & learning (doing your best 😬) to give yourself the same grace and compassion you extend to others. & simply navigating life and the world as a queer Black person.

I mean…

yeah.

Life be Lifeing.

But, the Sun always shines again…even if it ain’t tomorrow.

Some shit ain curable in a day let’s bffr.

But.

However…it does eventually.

And what a refreshing feeling.

It’s like…taking Lessons in Breathing*

Until it once again becomes automatic

Natural.

Beautiful.

Abundant Life all around you.

And.

Love ALL around you-

no longer sustaining oneself from a single source

that wasn’t you.

You appreciate the beautiful blues and remember that they are the same hues

As a tropical sky

Beauty:

Is

Within the eye

👁

Of the beholder.

What you believe

What you perceive

Your thoughts and thinking becoming things

Beloved…

Remember the sunshine. Do your best.

*shout out to the amazing Slam Poet Theresa Davis & her life-changing poem (She brought tears to my eyes during several different performances of this poem back in Atlanta)

“Breathing Lessons”

Real Love, bby

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Comfort. Romancing the (rose quartz) stone.. Highest regard.

An external home with safekeeping and the warmest embrace.

The sweetest taboo…No ordinary love…Sade

A trusted, safe space.

Complete safety; emotionally and otherwise.

Ease. Flow.

Love and respect that never ceases or dissipates regardless of a disagreement

Or temporary static.

Comfort in the midst of temporary contrast…that gifts us with more clarity.

Understanding.

Empathy.

Compassion.

A love expounded

Love, compounded.

Real Love, bby.

~Syn

Stay Ready ||2.18|| What a Life ✨

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Usually…well, I don’t think I made a post last year But I would post something about my B’EarthDay on my IG feed…but this year? Ine into dat. I just…am realizing that I’m not much of a fan of having my personal life up for public consumption. Been posting less and less personal stuff on the socials for a while now. I’m accepting that this is the most comfortable and balanced I feel. So yeah no

But I will post here. No personal images or videos…but, gratitude. Which is enough for me. My cup runneth over ✨

I treat myself (I do my best-some days not so much) and am treated wonderfully by the Universe, my fam and dearest loves/loved ones.

Every day.

& In the ways that I show up for myself. The foods I intentionally consume and those that I stay away from. The intentional ways that I practice body movement, breathing exercises, take the time to meditate and incorporate healthier ways of being. Sticking to my morning routines. The ways that I speak to myself (the intrusive thoughts, too cuz I can overthink like a mf sometimes) but. Also what I allow and no longer allow. Having and sticking with my healthy boundaries. The life that I have cultivated that is inundated with peace. Abundance. & love. I am so much more aware of and grateful for my life and life in general.

I am extended thee most beautiful and divine love; stemming from my closest humans, to acquaintances and strangers alike.

I am grateful for every human that crosses my path. Whether it be for a reason, season &/or a lifetime…all tings align.

But yeah man..I’m just gonna continue on this path and gracefully and humbly accept all this beautiful ass love and life that I get to experience. It’s a blessing every day above ground.

Granted, some days that’s a lil hard to remember…because: being human. & Shit sucks sometimes…like shit 😂 but man. This ride has been wild af, like bat shit wild some of the things I’ve seen/lived/experienced…what a life. From ATL to the Bay. & errywhere in between…

I’ve had my share of setbacks, setups (ill-intentioned people, envious/jealous people will teach you A Lot of priceless gems and teach you how to better navigate life cuz it’s a lot of them mf’s in it) heartache and heartbreak…& I wouldn’t change that shit for anything. All it did was gift me with experience, lessons, wisdom, shadow work, discernment, a therapist! 😂😂 and the list continues with a whole lot of beautiful ass blessings along the way.

It led me here . To me. As I am now. I’m grateful af. Cuz it and I am only getting better and better. Refinement. More life 🥂 Give thanks ✨

I go back to…(Castle) black.

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You know…as I go through life and I meet new interesting, fascinating, amazing human beings it amazes me every single time when I come across people who go from relationship to relationship to relationship without any time in between.

Time for yourself. To heal. To deal. Time for self reflection, introspection, self actualization…shit any reflection in general, having time to breathe and process without adding an additional energy to your mix.

Someone once ended a 15+ year relationship (2 women) and by day 3, my friend was dating someone else. I’m just like 😳 because how does one do that…

I mean…yes, you’re getting experience because you’re experiencing other people in relationships and having to navigate the highways & byways of that going on…but like…to not ever spend ANY time alone is so wild to me.

I can’t even fathom mixing up someone new energy-with all that lingering energy and unprocessed shit from the last person/relationship.

& I think it also must be my 12H placements talking because I be needing all the space and all the time to get my shit/self together. Before, during and after dealing with someone in that capacity, especially.

12 House tings

Only, then

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Only, then.
…only, if it feels sacred.
Like our bodies in motion…are in meditation.
Worshiping the Divine within one another.

Only then.
My Instagram story featuring Dreka & Kevin Gates’ IG Reel.

I was inspired to write those words. And reminded of connection. Divine order. & not fighting the Universe, ourselves or each other. No.

Only…complete Surrender. To love. Only, then.

Because fear. Feeding crumbs.

I want More. The heavens, cosmos. & beyond.

Only, then.

-Syn

2Pac. Fences. (That’s just the way it is)

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I love you. I have learned. For my own protection.
and self preservation (mentally, emotionally, psychologically)
That like you
when it comes to me…
I don’t like you.
The generational curse is strong in this one.
-Dear Mama

Ironically enough..My mum sent me the same clip as the gif I used as the feature image on this post (she sent the extra long clip from Fences, starring Denzel some years back. This was not a teachable moment for her. It was more of an affirming one. Matter of fact, she used that clip to REMIND me that being available emotionally, nurturing, kind, etc. was not here role as a parent. It was to provide.

She never ceases to remind me in some way that A) she never wanted kids.

And B) it’s always been more toleration than genuinely wanting to be a parent.

C)It fucking sucks to be on the receiving end of this your whole life.

Day 3. 2023. Maybe one day I’ll stop taking the shit personally. Or, maybe I won’t and this wound will forever be mine to experience. Idk.

All dem Brujas

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Me and bae in a dimly lit lounge.
Sippin drinks with clever names & shit hard to pronounce


We sip.
We stare into the eyes of each other’s abyss-
& welcome it
With open arms
I worship her body as a living, breathing psalm…

I booked us an exquisite suite
in the boutique-
hotel not too far from here

In our gay village, surrounded by community

It’s a full moon eclipse
we sip
&
Embrace our lunacy…

Two.

Too goddamn powerful to ever be tamed
Or,
Contained

Music is playing
“Diamond” by All Them Witches

You, look absolutely delicious.

Sittin. Pretty.
Ready
to be devoured


I, ready to oblige
Etta James-
damn, your eyes..

In this dimly lit room
She has that look
that lets me know, it’s time to go..it’s time to consume
🔥

Sometimes…you gotta stay ready

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Sometimes,
I just wanna bare my soul
Release all this weight from this heart of gold

& simply,
Let it be
Rest
in another’s thoughts, another’s regard…in another context
We both fixed signs so we test on who does stubborn the best
I guess…
We both do.

I jest, 
but I’m no fool
The Emperor and Magician
Qing of Pentacles, Capricorn Venus

Jupiter in Scorpio
7H Virgo…The meanest, cleanest
Rawest love
That water love

Sometimes inundates
Those coming from being used to half ass, low vibrational plates

There’s only so much we can leave to fate

2 individuals on their individual missions
Gotta share that Mariah Carey, vision
Of love

That feels like…
Soaking under the full moon wit your lover in a claw foot tub 🛀 
absolute peace
It could all be…if we ready

“You not a tree, you can move!” Coach Stormy

Also. I find it VERY interesting that Coach Stormy has an Aquarius AND a Leo stellium 💀🫠 Here is a couple tweets about her astrology:

“I’m Glowin The Fuck Up!” -Lil Murda

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I used that line from 1 of my fave shows, P-Valley. If you follow any of my other socials (Twitter, Instagram) then you know how much I absolutely love this show.

Ok. So why tf is that line the title of this post?

Because I felt like it. & I felt like it because the moments that I experienced leading up to even thinking of that line, had me feeling like Murda when Keyshawn showed him the WSHH feature with them. That energy. That Soul Glo ✨ cuz you now in the process of mining ⛏ your own diamonds…& once you realize…that you are also the Diamond 💎 game fucking changer.

What a time. What a life, Jhene Aiko. Seeing your shit come to fruition-in the divinely timed order it’s sposed to ✨

The feeling of having pride in your work and what the fuck you put out into the world. & also tremendous gratitude for what was, what’s happening rn and for allllll the beautiful, magical, wonderful experiences coming.

Give thanks. Gratitude for the doors and windows 🪟 that’s opening for me-& the right ones at that. The ones that feel good. That feel at ease. That feel joyful. That’s for my highest good & the highest good if all involved. Them joints that feel right & aligned ✨ give thanks.

PODCAST: The Joyful Experience

I am so pleased, so grateful and sooo excited to be sharing this Podcast & more of myself with you.

As you will hear in the Podcast, I am a 12H sun. With Jupiter in my 8H…Capricorn Mercury and Venus…ine into foolishness.

This 12H energy has me in the cut working on self in several ways, which I’m not mad about at all. & sometimes, I am beckoned to “show my face” & in this case, share my voice.

So. Here I Am.

& I am absolutely delighted to be able to share some of my innermost thoughts & feels regarding dating and mating with Astrology-& how you relate to your own birth chart.

Big up and Big love to all of the professional astrologers that have guided me these last few years and really helped a bih understand more and grow.

I am ever grateful for every opportunity and every gift. & this Podcast was certainly that.

Big love always to my beloved colleague, fellow author, writer, bad ass Scorpio witch and friend, Kat.

Give thanks for our queer family tree that’s been growin from AOL online/chat room times (yeah we old-ish) lol. I’m hella grateful for such a wonderful opportunity. That shit was hella fun.

Syncere, Guest Host. The Joyful Experience Podcast, August, 2022

Listen To Full Podcast Here

Tender Boys & Mama (Ms. Ernestine)

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Tender boys who grew up wit they Grammy
And all her cats
Left to sit back
Cuz when he walk, he got a switch back
That earned him tenure at her house

Jason,
Sweet as pie and quiet as a mouse
Played in the yard, barely left the house

Boys like him was hushed at an early age
At the early stage
When da men dem peep his ways
His true self died at an early age 

Like his body did, from AIDS

If I could take a turn back of the page
I would hug him so tight
Let him know that it’s alright
To love and to like...who you like

To be who you be
As softly
As you would like to walk these island streets
Bey I wish I was older when we did meet

I just remember the smile

The smile that showed me early, it was ok to be the Sun
even if some folks prefer shade…


Jason,
I remember you.
I honor you.
I love you.

My first known queer Ancestor
I remember ✨🕊
~Syn
Uncle Clifford and Ms. Ernestine