Saturn in Pisces

Queer

I no longer wish to subscribe to,

participate in

Or be…ripped to shreds

By: this generational curse

Look at what you done to me

You put a gun to me

Then you brought the Sun to me.
“Stay Ready” (What A Life) by Jhene Aiko featuring Kendrick Lamar

Your proverbial gun led me to the Sun 
& my way out of the darkness
It was…acceptance
Grief. Every stage
It seemed like, all…in one day

Give thanks. That contrast begets clarity
Producing astonishing colours & never to be to duplicated art-
These tears
cleansing this cycle of insanity

Offering more love
&,
offering more of…broken trust
Thrown back to me
Adorned on a golden, Venusian platter
I will always choose love…over the latter
I choose my peace, over this natural disaster
Protection and self preservation
And.
I can’t heal a wound, whilst allowing it to be constantly re-injured.

Saturn.
Pisces.
Retrograde, natal.

And if your goals include healing, growth, &/or moving on from things, people, substances, escapism. . .etc that don’t fuel your best, nor well-interest, higher good or well-being…

You know what it is. Nouns: person, place or tings.

Release what is no longer yours to carry & never forget that Your journey is personal. And healing isn’t linear.

Love & above ☝🏾 ✨

~Syn

Oh. Here is an article on Saturn in Pisces by Chani Nicholas (also where the post image is from). She’s one of the professional astrologers that I follow on a couple socials:

What You Need to Know About Saturn in Pisces

Stay Ready ||2.18|| What a Life ✨

Queer

Usually…well, I don’t think I made a post last year But I would post something about my B’EarthDay on my IG feed…but this year? Ine into dat. I just…am realizing that I’m not much of a fan of having my personal life up for public consumption. Been posting less and less personal stuff on the socials for a while now. I’m accepting that this is the most comfortable and balanced I feel. So yeah no

But I will post here. No personal images or videos…but, gratitude. Which is enough for me. My cup runneth over ✨

I treat myself (I do my best-some days not so much) and am treated wonderfully by the Universe, my fam and dearest loves/loved ones.

Every day.

& In the ways that I show up for myself. The foods I intentionally consume and those that I stay away from. The intentional ways that I practice body movement, breathing exercises, take the time to meditate and incorporate healthier ways of being. Sticking to my morning routines. The ways that I speak to myself (the intrusive thoughts, too cuz I can overthink like a mf sometimes) but. Also what I allow and no longer allow. Having and sticking with my healthy boundaries. The life that I have cultivated that is inundated with peace. Abundance. & love. I am so much more aware of and grateful for my life and life in general.

I am extended thee most beautiful and divine love; stemming from my closest humans, to acquaintances and strangers alike.

I am grateful for every human that crosses my path. Whether it be for a reason, season &/or a lifetime…all tings align.

But yeah man..I’m just gonna continue on this path and gracefully and humbly accept all this beautiful ass love and life that I get to experience. It’s a blessing every day above ground.

Granted, some days that’s a lil hard to remember…because: being human. & Shit sucks sometimes…like shit 😂 but man. This ride has been wild af, like bat shit wild some of the things I’ve seen/lived/experienced…what a life. From ATL to the Bay. & errywhere in between…

I’ve had my share of setbacks, setups (ill-intentioned people, envious/jealous people will teach you A Lot of priceless gems and teach you how to better navigate life cuz it’s a lot of them mf’s in it) heartache and heartbreak…& I wouldn’t change that shit for anything. All it did was gift me with experience, lessons, wisdom, shadow work, discernment, a therapist! 😂😂 and the list continues with a whole lot of beautiful ass blessings along the way.

It led me here . To me. As I am now. I’m grateful af. Cuz it and I am only getting better and better. Refinement. More life 🥂 Give thanks ✨

V-day, New Girl

Queer

I really wanted to post this to remind myself just how beautiful (& paramount) authentic connection really is. I saw this video of Lauren London describing her ideal or a great date and I was like

My hilarious Leo ♌️ boo, Dan Levy aka David on Schitt’s Creek

& so. I did a quick lil mashup video with LL’s words and a tweet I found also reflective of my views/desires.

Authentic & genuine connection is very important to me. I once read something that said, “I don’t care if you’ve climbed Mount Everest or if you’ve never left your home town. The kind of love & how you give/receive/share love is what matters most” & I couldn’t agree more.

And!

Being able to kick it with my person, laugh, joke, sing off key together…just being able to enjoy my person as they are, is what I’m here for. I absolutely believe in the foundation of friendship & the utmost respect for one another in all moments. Having conversations about Agartha, to Game of Thrones, Insecure to to CRT. Free Palestine to the massacre of Saint Valentine, AI to Climate change…I’m here for all of it.

& being a Sagittarius Moon and MC…traveling is one of my most favourite things. So. Someone who I can travel with (because news flash, errybody ain’t for everyting and some people make horrible travel companions). But yeah. You gotta know yourself man. What you like/don’t like. What brings you joy. Shit that sets your soul on fire. Because if you can align with someone who adds to that flame and doesn’t try to (inadvertently or not) dim it…golden.

Know yaself. Love yourself. So you can return that same energy to another. I have a whole lot more shit to say, but also a meeting to attend. So.

I go back to…(Castle) black.

Queer

You know…as I go through life and I meet new interesting, fascinating, amazing human beings it amazes me every single time when I come across people who go from relationship to relationship to relationship without any time in between.

Time for yourself. To heal. To deal. Time for self reflection, introspection, self actualization…shit any reflection in general, having time to breathe and process without adding an additional energy to your mix.

Someone once ended a 15+ year relationship (2 women) and by day 3, my friend was dating someone else. I’m just like 😳 because how does one do that…

I mean…yes, you’re getting experience because you’re experiencing other people in relationships and having to navigate the highways & byways of that going on…but like…to not ever spend ANY time alone is so wild to me.

I can’t even fathom mixing up someone new energy-with all that lingering energy and unprocessed shit from the last person/relationship.

& I think it also must be my 12H placements talking because I be needing all the space and all the time to get my shit/self together. Before, during and after dealing with someone in that capacity, especially.

Sometimes…you gotta stay ready

Queer

Sometimes,
I just wanna bare my soul
Release all this weight from this heart of gold

& simply,
Let it be
Rest
in another’s thoughts, another’s regard…in another context
We both fixed signs so we test on who does stubborn the best
I guess…
We both do.

I jest, 
but I’m no fool
The Emperor and Magician
Qing of Pentacles, Capricorn Venus

Jupiter in Scorpio
7H Virgo…The meanest, cleanest
Rawest love
That water love

Sometimes inundates
Those coming from being used to half ass, low vibrational plates

There’s only so much we can leave to fate

2 individuals on their individual missions
Gotta share that Mariah Carey, vision
Of love

That feels like…
Soaking under the full moon wit your lover in a claw foot tub 🛀 
absolute peace
It could all be…if we ready

“You not a tree, you can move!” Coach Stormy

Also. I find it VERY interesting that Coach Stormy has an Aquarius AND a Leo stellium 💀🫠 Here is a couple tweets about her astrology:

“I’m Glowin The Fuck Up!” -Lil Murda

Queer

I used that line from 1 of my fave shows, P-Valley. If you follow any of my other socials (Twitter, Instagram) then you know how much I absolutely love this show.

Ok. So why tf is that line the title of this post?

Because I felt like it. & I felt like it because the moments that I experienced leading up to even thinking of that line, had me feeling like Murda when Keyshawn showed him the WSHH feature with them. That energy. That Soul Glo ✨ cuz you now in the process of mining ⛏ your own diamonds…& once you realize…that you are also the Diamond 💎 game fucking changer.

What a time. What a life, Jhene Aiko. Seeing your shit come to fruition-in the divinely timed order it’s sposed to ✨

The feeling of having pride in your work and what the fuck you put out into the world. & also tremendous gratitude for what was, what’s happening rn and for allllll the beautiful, magical, wonderful experiences coming.

Give thanks. Gratitude for the doors and windows 🪟 that’s opening for me-& the right ones at that. The ones that feel good. That feel at ease. That feel joyful. That’s for my highest good & the highest good if all involved. Them joints that feel right & aligned ✨ give thanks.

PODCAST: The Joyful Experience

I am so pleased, so grateful and sooo excited to be sharing this Podcast & more of myself with you.

As you will hear in the Podcast, I am a 12H sun. With Jupiter in my 8H…Capricorn Mercury and Venus…ine into foolishness.

This 12H energy has me in the cut working on self in several ways, which I’m not mad about at all. & sometimes, I am beckoned to “show my face” & in this case, share my voice.

So. Here I Am.

& I am absolutely delighted to be able to share some of my innermost thoughts & feels regarding dating and mating with Astrology-& how you relate to your own birth chart.

Big up and Big love to all of the professional astrologers that have guided me these last few years and really helped a bih understand more and grow.

I am ever grateful for every opportunity and every gift. & this Podcast was certainly that.

Big love always to my beloved colleague, fellow author, writer, bad ass Scorpio witch and friend, Kat.

Give thanks for our queer family tree that’s been growin from AOL online/chat room times (yeah we old-ish) lol. I’m hella grateful for such a wonderful opportunity. That shit was hella fun.

Syncere, Guest Host. The Joyful Experience Podcast, August, 2022

Listen To Full Podcast Here

Tender Boys & Mama (Ms. Ernestine)

Queer

Tender boys who grew up wit they Grammy
And all her cats
Left to sit back
Cuz when he walk, he got a switch back
That earned him tenure at her house

Jason,
Sweet as pie and quiet as a mouse
Played in the yard, barely left the house

Boys like him was hushed at an early age
At the early stage
When da men dem peep his ways
His true self died at an early age 

Like his body did, from AIDS

If I could take a turn back of the page
I would hug him so tight
Let him know that it’s alright
To love and to like...who you like

To be who you be
As softly
As you would like to walk these island streets
Bey I wish I was older when we did meet

I just remember the smile

The smile that showed me early, it was ok to be the Sun
even if some folks prefer shade…


Jason,
I remember you.
I honor you.
I love you.

My first known queer Ancestor
I remember ✨🕊
~Syn

The Voices Of Our Ancestors

QBag, qpoc, Queer, qwoc

Live today…through the vibration of the drum.

All, of our ancestors.” -Voodoo Honey “Elegua” check it out it’s on SoundCloud.

Peace.

So. Im learning that even tho Twitter is so benevolent amd gives me the option to keep adding characters forever and ever ahmen… that don’t mean write a goddamn blog on twitter.com. no. No, Syn. That is the reason amazing sites like WordPress exist, lol. So. I’m gonna do my best to not post long ass shit on Twitter and actually show my blog the love she deserves. Yes, she is a woman. Because duh…women are smarter and superior. The Goddess made it so. Not even a debate.

So. I came here for this:

I’ve never played drums professionally…I’ve probably only played on an actual set of drums…maybe 3 or so times in this life. However. The drum and I…we have an impenetrable bond, I can’t even deny. More so the sound and the vibrations of the drum. I can definitely give thanks to my ancestors from the Ivory coast to the Caribbean for this connection.

I am in pure love with the drum; my ancestors made ours out of goat or sheepskin…& I remember as a kid how my fingers felt the first time I held one. The vibration as I tapped away…it felt as though my hands and my fingertips had done that many times.

& Now as an adult, I can recognize + acknowledge the specific ways that we are always connected to our roots. Give thanks. I always wondered why I was always creating every surface I touched into a drum, lol. I still kinda do. Ok I do…a lot. I can’t help it, & neither would I want to. As they say #veryconnected (got that from The Very Black Project on Instagram) but I love it because it’s so true. No matter how far away i move, what country I wind up in, what city…I’m always and forever connected to my roots and I love that. Hella grateful. Give thanks.