You can like someone as a person-
what they stand for, how they think and move in the world
how great of a parent they are…
but that still doesn’t make them compatible with you, as your partner.
Like attracts Like…
& like Stevie says:
“Until the day that You are Me and I Am You” #illbelovingyouforever
& we could go to a land sans
never
& you will never
doubt the word “Love” whenever-
It is uttered…
How can I discover
The abyss of you
Cuz your beauty transcends physical
Your heart- the shyt that makes Shakespearean sonnets lyrical
Picasso
Michelangelo
Frida Kahlo’s muse
Basquiat to Fitzgeralds blues
That made her sing tunes in tune with the moon’s-
Inexplicable attraction to the water
New. & Wet 💦
Streaming & thriving from love and pain
The extraction of shame
I give you honesty as we…exchange flames 🔥
In the heat of the night
I got your body feelin just right
A kiss.
One taste of your wetness helps me take flight…
High as fuck
We High as Love
…you know how deep that is???!
Fuck. I guess Number 1.
Yowsers.
Listening to The Zone- Drake The Wknd
Cuz it reminded me of your smooth, sexy ass…
Then.
It
Hit
Me
My …
Higher Me
Speaking to my
SELF
Remembering
Only moments earlier i was One with Spirit and Self
In Gratitude for being Saved once Again…
I thought………..
I
Lay
higher Self
& then The Birds Part 2- The Wknd again.
It HIT ME
what if:
YOU
WERE [ MY ] WIFE???
How would [ I ] feel?
If
You were to do with her
that
you
Ha
me?
Me. Striving for a better.
Would let
Lust
Destroy the Trust
& willingly. knowingly. Break. Love.
& It Hit Me
How could I intentionally. Willingly. Hurt. Another human being
even though I don’t know her & she don’t know me?!
Being as how i had meditated hours earlier & in my very present being
Gave thanks & got lifted to Higher Self
& it hit me!!!!
That shyt just ain’t me.
Not my Style or Soul.
So I exhaled all the images of your fine ass.
I shouldn’t have even entertained it
So.
Went completely through iPhone & erased:
HISTORY.
Thank the Goddess for realization and growth.
Goddess be with us in our hardest times. Thank You.
This is what happens
When attraction collides in seconds
Proper.
(im)perfect as we need to be.
In our individual Growth.
unexpected muses
Can be deemed
Confusing
Especially when they themselves withhold the beauty from the portrait…
I don’t know
Who
You
are
What you want
But
I got what u need
& I got ideas on who you may be
But
Show me
Than words…twice removed…from lips
I’m doomed to not be consumed with this picture you paint
Or maybe the brush has been dropped
&
You’re an artist displaying canvas
In a pitch black room
&
I see you
I know what you want
I understand this part of Life
& who the fuck wants to die alone?
I raise my hand- gladly as long as I’m happy
But
Darling
You
Make me
This
No
You take me: I Am the Spell. I Am the hallucinogenic.
You take this:
Anectode to the mundane
As I give you the same
Bring ur shame I can bring my former pain
We can get vain
& Love each other more than anything other
Anyone other
And be US
giving Love…
drunk. IN. Love
Tangled in Lust
But
Never lost
Love
never
costs
anything.
A thing.
Thinking…
All of the above.
It’s as if I’ve been touched by the Sun and the Moon
Where the Light meets dark
& they play an impromptu tune
Fuck
…not so soon
When.
Wait. Until
flowers are in bloom
Then.
then you can Marvel
No fuck it
I know survival
I know arrival…
is the sweetest
What we feel
What we would do to one another…
Should never be repeated
Until it’s heated
To the correct temp
& know that we’re not exempt
From fuckin up sometimes
Being Human & all….
OH..Oh.oh
I want some more
I’m howling like
Dan Auerbach
You got sweet lips
Like I did
never taste before
&
your walk in this world:
precise
Like
Swiss movement
OH..Oh.oh
I want some more…
I ate all of it
Ravenous
& I ate it like I wouldn’t get it again…
Even though I know exactly when.
& when we wake up
Ima have her grippin the sheets…bent over and grabbing the nightstand
It’s your fault.
& because of you.
Here we are…two
consenting…… adults. Consenting to
Kink
Induced
comas
& I was on her
Then.
I was
In her…
Like……
I fuckin Love her
Like & I been loved her
I touched her
I fucked her
I kissed her
*slow
I let my tongue go.
Exactly how her body responded
Indulged in her abyss
Deep- A place where you forgot to be
A place inside her…You…Forgot to See.
& thats what happened
I see pictures that are emailed
Family
& I see them smiling
All happy & content
They have not failed as parents
Their son, is now getting married to a woman.
Not another man.
They breathe a sigh of right wing religious relief
My mum can’t say the same
She thinks she will never be as happy as them
Her kinfolk
Who got it right
&
Didn’t raise
A dyke
Hmmm.
Now
How does one make up for this?
I see the church
It’s pews
The mother wearing purple sash and a shiny dress
The father: good Sunday suit with a handkerchief in his pocket
Smiles all around
Nice dresses
Nice smiles
I wonder sometimes…
Will I ever be able to fill such an holy building with family on my day?*
Or will the flames be too close to my feet that they feel they may get burned…
*I have zero desire to be in a church for any reason. Especially not the Divine union with my Goddess*
She’s afraid to love so fast…
Or-
Maybe
Even
At all…
Sometimes burns in 3rd degrees are
unseen.
Off with her head!
Yelled the Queen!
And
It ain’t even my scene…
“what are human beings
that you pay attention to them?
You’ve made them only slightly less than Divine,”
She walked up:
Eyes Low
Shiny toy guns
Shining
Knowing her Power
Her smirk gave way.
“Hey”
I,
leaning
Look her up & down and look to the sky as I mumble a small prayer..
What?
“What? Really? That’s all that you have to say?”
Smirk. Smirk. Smirk.
*she say its for tunechi: she lie wit a straight face
Bad.
“I can’t have you coming over here, looking like you do. Smelling as fucking good as you do and just begging Saturn to turn loose on my ass. You’re hella married.”
“And?!” She leaned in closer to me. I got a hit of her $300 an ounce imported fragrance.
I got as close to her ear as I could without my mouth actually touching it & whispered, “And…you’re making my dick very hard with the thoughts that I’m having about how many different ways & different positions I would fuck you in…How I would have you screaming my name over & over…until your aren’t able to speak.” I leaned back against the wall & shrugged.
“So. What the fuck, Syn. Are we fucking or…your point in saying all of that & getting my pussy wet, is what?”
“Point being…You. In those motherfucking heels & that sexy ass prowess of yours…Please, back the fuck off & tend to your wifey at home. I’m bad, but I’m good though.”
Love
In the form
Of imperfect petals of the rose
Gold every wo(man) is after
I sat there
Baffled
At butterflies dancing so sincerely
Within
White flag
I suppose we are never to old to let go
&
Hold onto every single memory of Love.
12:14 AM 12/4/
Eye
With my lovers heart
Vision
Unbound
Courtship
Unscripted
Play and lay by the fire
Guided by guilty pleasures
Thoughts:
You
Spread eagle
In all your splendor-
Damnit
This was supposed to be romantic…
Queer, Gifted & Black 