paradise

Tings I into x AB šŸ•ŠāœØ

Queer
Dead Poets Society šŸ•Š āœØ

Iā€™m interested in authentic connectionā€¦ A life filled with an abundance of love, art/music , travel, romance.

And,

Hand written poetry
Fucking your soul into the Cosmos
& co-creating love, to ā€œSay Yesā€ by Floetry
Midnight soaks in a clawfoot tub
Love letters to, and from my loveā€¦

& Writing love letters to lifeā€¦by simply living & experiencing it. & doing my best to not ever take any of it for granted.

I have such a habit-of digressing. Back to this blessing [Life]

& tings I into

Traveling the world on a foodie & culturally centered type itinerary
Complementary energy;
Easy, like Sunday Morning


Lionel Richie Rich
in love, life, experience
Adventuring, learning & expanding
appreciating every step & every person


Every tingā€¦along this path
Is for my growth and advancement
I like slow meals and a slow dance
Proper romance
That continues to expand 
& blossom
Locally led food tours
10 courses
via 711 horses
Or
Hiking in the jungle, to freshly foraged ingredients
Breaking bread, crossing cultures
Ancestral wisdom & veneration of lineage
Exchanging energy, history, love & community, appreciating (there goes that gratitude again. Iā€™m telling ya, it really changes & shifts shit) but yeah.

šŸŒ Connection āœØ

Collecting memories.
Volunteering, serving, giving back in some capacity, as I visit each country.

No matter what town or city, Iā€™m always grateful to Be.
Thankful to see a new day, let alone a new horizon, perspective, & hemisphere.

Loveā€¦is always in my ear
and always in this Air-
Sign
With a water rising
Jupiter approved to make moves
Even through
temporary wipeouts (thanks Saturn) the wave is always smoothe..

Cuz, itā€™s the peace of knowing Iā€™m always where Iā€™m meant to be
& Doing what Iā€™m meant to do.

Acknowledging that change is the only constant
& happiness, love, peace, bliss, etc. comes from within
+
You are your own Hero & Saviour-itā€™s up to you whether you sink or swim
Good
In Frank Oceans
Know Thyself:
I am the medicine, I am the spell, I am the potion

I am the Source
& aligned with Source?

The force (alignment + magick āœØ) is strong in this one.

& living life to the fullest, on my own fucking terms šŸ¤ŸšŸæ

energetic transitions x Sade

Queer

Yo. Ima need yā€™all to play ā€œParadiseā€ by Sade.

Because this line specifically:

Oooh, what a life

Is my modus operandi- as I count my blessings (canā€™t really, theyā€™re innumerable) and recount the amount of joy, bliss, blessings, and I meanā€¦just miraculous ass shit-that is my life.

What a time.

What a ride.

What a life.

Iā€™m so grateful. The lives that Iā€™ve livedā€¦the things Iā€™ve been able to experienceā€¦wow. Give thanks.

Yo.

Donā€™t leave this plane with regrets. Try/do your best. And fucking remember to LIVE while you are alive. Life is so beautiful and there is so much to see, so many wonderful beings (human & animal) that you will encounter-that will continue to unlock more levels to your life story.

No one is sent to you, to us by accident. I have been and am absolutely blessed to have lived the way I live. To love the way I love. & to be loved. To be seen. Heard. Adored. Cared for, by the people that have come into my life.

And ofc not everyone was all good, had the best intentions, etc. but they were (& are, haters gonna hate forever I think) invaluable to me. Because their dishonesty, their betrayal, the hurt and tears that I have cried over some of themā€¦was/is never in vain.

First of all, tears are healing. We are our own personal waterfall.

& these folks taught me some invaluable lessons; about life, myself and other human beings as we relate to one another. So. I call em lessons in growing and knowing your worth. Discernment. & keeping certain energies away from you and your aura.

Ok. Less time on them folx and more on love.

& I knowwwwwww (trust me I know) this clichĆ© as fuck, but you gotta love yourself. Cuz once you really get there; to the core, down to your rootsā€¦you start living in your truth. You accept and love yourself & your authentic expression. And being grounded like that? With a healthy self conceptā€¦thatā€™s a magickal ass place to be.

The love and respect that you have for yourself, will be reflected in your relationships. It affects who and what you align with.

And. What you tolerate and allow. Or donā€™t.

These connections will either nourish and sustain us, as we grow, evolve and age.

Or, will they drain us; our life force and energy.

Surround yourself with peace. & people who feel like home. Who you can absolutely be yourself around-there is no letting hair down. Cuz it was that way when you walked in the door.

Life is to precious and finite to feel discomfort in someoneā€™s presence-based on familiarity, association, time spent..nah

The quality of your friendships and relationships in general, mirror the quality of your life I think.

And as someone who is 11th House ruled (my Aquarius sun + my Capricorn Venus is in the 11th) I have made/formed/created/sustained some pretty beautiful and bad ass connections & relationships with many wonderful humans from all walks of the planet (Iā€™m also a Sagittarius moon šŸ›«)

Image from the artist, Raycos

To say Iā€™ve lived a veryā€¦interesting (but fun, also enlightening, etc) life- from Atlanta to California and so many places in between and outside of thatā€¦is definitely an understatement. Itā€™s been wild (not always the good kind šŸ˜‚) but a hellova ride nonetheless and I take none of it for granted.

Looking forward to the new chapters of this book šŸ˜ŽšŸ¤™šŸæ

Donā€™t Wake The Dead x Salt Life

Queer

I hate sounding clichĆ©. & this is probably gonna sound clichĆ© as hell, but 2023 is definitely a year of change. Good change. Wellā€¦I guess all change is good. Idk if I can speak for that for every single case/person, but the good change? Yeah thatā€™s that shit Iā€™m on.

Ok but Wtf does this have to do with the dead?

Every-fucking-thing.

Because there are a couple people in my life, with all love- I choose not to resuscitate the connections.

Excavating the same grave

& expecting new life

When only toxicity is resurrected every timeā€¦

Connection 2:

2022

with her wasā€¦bird food.

& because of my very strong like, allowed myself to be breadcrumbed

Succumbed

To lust

& pretty potential

When in actuality

reality: this toy was shiny

But still a gun.

Capable of

An inescapable fog and inexplicable buzz

But.

Love

And Saturn returning me to center.

Shadow work and

Two names on parchment and

Let it burn šŸ”„

What is dead, is no longer

Thatā€™s what the fuck I call higher learning.

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Jay Pritchett

Queer

Closets, Closets, Closets

It’s where we keep our stuff.

Sometimes, it’s where the ones around us, the ones who claim to love and care about us…the ones we also love the most…want us to store, hide and compartmentalize;

the parts that they, their friends, surrounding and immediate communities wants us to keep hidden and locked away. Because it’s more comfortable for them, as long as that part of us is stuffed in there-without a trace, without a say.

Now, the catch is, living here on this island and in this country- even though the doors are welcomed to be open, there’s always someone there dangling locks and keys in your face, when your stuff is too boldly displayed.

Be yourself!-

wait, but not like that…

Your Paradise Is My Hell.

I Suppress Where You Vacation.
Paradise? Nah, been lost. 

I usually keep my hair shaved pretty low on the sides. So I went on Instagram and searched for the least threatening/aggressive/misogynistic seeming barber on island to get a haircut since I had been back home for a while and was long overdue. Found some cool looking dudes. & got some inches off the top and back to the usual, close on the side. In barber terms i'd say probably a 1.Got home to the displeasure of my aunt and my mum, by the looks on their faces, they hated it.

part 1:

I don’t like it, I like your hair when it’s longer

-my Aunt





part 2:






Make sure you don’t cut your hair anymore. I don’t like you looking so much like a boy…
-my Mum





According to astrology I'm in my profection year that deals with family and roots. & I'm reminded why I left this place in the first place.

All those years of being away
from these prominent figures and triggers
This trauma and drama
& these closets
& half ass acceptance
receiving whatsapp messages on repentance
feels like i'm serving a sentence
in a picturesque hell
be you; but make sure you hide that gay shit well
lest you be the topic of conversation
in a "christian nation"

I Suffer Where You Vacation

Facing
constant backlash and retaliation
simply for existing
as me
Never free
& if you dare to be- here comes that lock and key