I had such a tremendous experience(s) this weekend. So much love. So much celebrating. So much quality time with people I don’t get to spend time with that often. It was simply beautiful.

& Also, TONS of work prepping for the ting. Being 1000% present & attentive during the ting.

After a successful, & I do mean full, day (week+ prep) celebrating the woman who helped anchor me to this world…I’m exhausted. Very grateful and very full (love, gratitude, community) and this morning I was prompted to slow tf down.

Please believe this was a v painful (thanks Saturn) reminder as I was carrying the bags of leftover 🗑 to the curb-think, cans, beer & wine bottles) I did some maneuver that was the wrong fucking way to maneuve 🤨 (move) apparently 😂 but that last bag sent me to my doctors office this morning.

& so, 1 steroid shot and a couple of prescriptions later, here I am.

Im actually writing in bed. Wondering if this shit gonna kick in to full gear or stall at 80%. Well. Grateful for everything that led me here, still. Cuz all that work and energy was absolutely worth it.

If being away from my family for 20+ years has taught me anything, it’s to cherish your fucking moments and especially, your people. So. I will never regret showing up and showing tf out, for my love, fam & friends. People should know (ofc not just on 1 day outta the year, no) consistently feel and know how much you care for and love them. We are placed here to love. & to enjoy ourselves-whatever tf that might look like to you.

& as I recognize the lessons in real time more and more now, I’m grateful for the shit. Cuz it only helps make me better.

You gotta be it, to receive it (authentically)

& give it to yourself first, before ever trying to replenish your well.

Be your own water. You the well, too.

🤔 I think the muscle relaxer & anti inflammatory 💊 kickin in, lolol. That’s all the epiphanies from me (fa now 😎)