mercury retrograde

4(a)G Frequency

Queer

Not taking things personally is an art; and it’s one that I love and adore.

But don’t get me wrong, I would not be keeping it 💯 if I said I don’t take shit personally sometimes.

I just do it a lot less now. & because of it, I have A LOT more peace.

Listen, I’m not tryna tell you what to do or nutn

But all I’m saying is sit with it/your thoughts when you have a moment of stillness & peace.

Now if you think about it, and things that people do, or shit that they say tend to rub you the wrong way a lot of times?

Or do you end up with hurt feelings or pissed off frequently, because of something somebody said or did or DIDN’T do…

Read The Four Agreements. I started with the chapter that said “don’t take anything personally” because that’s what my (water rising) ass needed the most, lol. All of it is good.

Bless,

-Syn

The ruin..of many a poor Boi

Queer

& God

I know I’m one

-The House of the Rising Sun

I’m talking bout Karmic relationships, karmic ties, soulmates, etc. Yeah. All dem, lolol

Has been the…well I wouldn’t say my ruin, but the stress, the drama 🎭 and extra shit that’ll have you like:

The heartache and heartbreak; which is, tbh, sometimes self inflicted when we exaggerate someone’s presence and their place in our lives- yeah, been there, not doing that again.

Or, when we make these temporary lessons in passing…our forever person.

Your everything was sposed to simply be the thing that reminded you not to follow the same path or patterns.

We, drawn to our karmic past lifetimes like a magnet, attract these folx and get into romantic relationships with them, when they was sposed to just be the lesson, or a even a reminder, personified.

We really should’ve just kept it cool, kept it cute & kept it pushin- & not have romantic or sexual (did you know there’s something called sexual soulmates? Thought that was cool) ties to them this go round.

Merry. And Mary.

Twin Flame/Karmic Lover/Ex Forecast: Circles and cloudy.

A time. Once again, Mercury rx is almost fully upon us. Ask for clarity. & discernment, bby.

Too

Queer

And always, home is where my heart is-beating faithfully within my chest.

👁 e

home is always with/within me.

first and foremost.

A reminder. A celebration…

Mercury & Mars are direct.

& I had to recollect
the story of me
Of my…divinity
The fact that I am loved. & adored infinitely…simply…
because I exist.
Give thanks.

Message in a bottle (Mummy Dearest)

Queer 
After Mercury. & After Mars.
They both retrograde right now. & it was by the grace of the twitter gods that reminded me of this astrological occurrence with those 2 planets.

Still. I hopped on WhatsApp and began typing a message to my mum.
Some of the realest shit I ever wrote.

I have some things I need to get off of my chest. Release this negative energy and this pressure in my heart. Because holding things in, makes ppl explode. And it’s counterproductive to any type of growth.

Why do you volunteer information that no one asked you for?

It seems like whenever (especially) you are feeling some type of way about me, you always do that. Say something to try and embarrass me or put me down in some way, in front of others.

Why do you do that? It’s so toxic and unnecessary. And just, the actions of someone who doesn’t like or actually hates the other person. That’s how you make me feel. Please stop doing this. It’s embarrassing for the both of us esp when it’s front of people.

Tonight…tonight I am accepting FINALLY that some generational curses, maybe just can’t be broken. Because the toxic bonds/relationships and the horrible ways we handle, treat & mistreat one another…being BLOOD related…Has got to be a curse. With the exception of aunt L and her children, we are cursed with toxicity with the women and their children. 

The proof is all there. & I can’t change anything and want to do better and be better, for the both of us. To not want to have a bad relationship with my mother like Y & AV. C and AV. All of you sisters. Once you all get angry you completely cut each other off and move on. That’s so unhealthy and so toxic.

No one apologizes. No one is accountable. We just have attitudes and stop speaking to each other. Where is the love???? Where is the compassion and understanding that we have for everyone else, but each other?

Doing the same thing, being the same harmful, mean, hurtful person…and expecting different results, is called insanity.

I feel like a stranger compared to the way you treat other people. Like you prefer everyone else on the planet as your child or adopted child, over me. This is how I feel. & it breaks my heart. This ya how I’ve felt for as long as I can remember.

I don’t want to live a stressful uncomfortable life. & Nobody wants to walk on eggshells as you put it. Or be in negative ass energy. I feel like emotionally and psychologically, I’m regressing here.

In this life I’ve learned that some people…just do better loving each other, from a distance.

It’s a hard pill to swallow when it’s a personal truth, but I have to acknowledge and accept that this path and the way we are with each other when things go left, is not healthy. It’s not good. & this is why I’ve made the decision to detach from this toxicity.