gratitude

Magnum Opus

Queer

No mf notes.

Ofc I’m gonna keep talking. Because I’m currently listening to this song on my playlist called:

Romancing the (rose quartz) Stone

& it triggered a core memory of gayness. Story time:

*

*also good to remember: In other peoples stories, projections and perceptions of you; you will be a hero to some, & the villain & big bad wolf to others. Try not to take it too personally. We are being perceived from so many angles at times, people forget to search the Source-themselves first. I mean, we play our parts, according to our own awareness right? Lessons & shit we need to learn? Well. Some people are just shitty, horrible people & they’re quite aware of it 😂

Sooo. This:

Artist: dvsn Song: The Line

When I first heard this beautiful ass, long ass song…ine ga lie, my shit was blown 🤯 bc it was so perfectly sung and executed..a piece of my soul felt cracked open. It felt like I was levitating. Also my soft ass (grateful for this placement tho, lk 🔑) Pisces ♓️ rising fell ALL the way in love with the lyrics. The thought & possibility of loving & being loved this thoroughly, openly & deep again..i. Well, back to the song.

The Line. How can you not help but to feel shit upon hearing it? It’s almost haunting, right before he begins the first verse. & that moaning/mumble singing in the background-that longing, an undeniable love that is being boldly proclaimed… Love that stretches from the heavens and extends from the Cosmos, down to where the light will never touch- in the depths of the deepest ocean.

& that feeling continues throughout the entirety of the song. So to say that I played it a million times, would be a lie. It was 2 million 😂

The lyrics…I really can go on about this song forever. But I need to take my ass to bed. So back to the 🏳️‍🌈 memory:

I was invited to a family dinner with a group of us lgbtq folx, thrown by my friend who happens to be an amazing award winning Chef, & her fiancée. The food was being laid out & presented so beautifully & being that her fiancée is also a music head, she decided that it was time to “put us on”.

Me:

I told them that they HAD to hear that song 🎵 that I was currently obsessed with. They indulged me (bc my musical taste is awesome 👅)

I played that track. Everyone stopped what they were doing and sat there. Fast forward a few weeks later & I get a phone call from them both, thanking me for helping them select the perfect song for their wedding (told ya my taste was awesome 😂) & at the actual ceremony when they played the song…it was forever etched into my soul; a song of love everlasting, shared by two souls vowing to embrace, support & love one another…& knowing the love that those two humans have for each other…makes it even more beautiful & meaningful. This song allowed me to witness and be a part of all that magical, radical ass love. Give thanks.

Tings I into x AB 🕊✨

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Dead Poets Society 🕊 ✨

I’m interested in authentic connection… A life filled with an abundance of love, art/music , travel, romance.

And,

Hand written poetry
Fucking your soul into the Cosmos
& co-creating love, to “Say Yes” by Floetry
Midnight soaks in a clawfoot tub
Love letters to, and from my love…

& Writing love letters to life…by simply living & experiencing it. & doing my best to not ever take any of it for granted.

I have such a habit-of digressing. Back to this blessing [Life]

& tings I into

Traveling the world on a foodie & culturally centered type itinerary
Complementary energy;
Easy, like Sunday Morning


Lionel Richie Rich
in love, life, experience
Adventuring, learning & expanding
appreciating every step & every person


Every ting…along this path
Is for my growth and advancement
I like slow meals and a slow dance
Proper romance
That continues to expand 
& blossom
Locally led food tours
10 courses
via 711 horses
Or
Hiking in the jungle, to freshly foraged ingredients
Breaking bread, crossing cultures
Ancestral wisdom & veneration of lineage
Exchanging energy, history, love & community, appreciating (there goes that gratitude again. I’m telling ya, it really changes & shifts shit) but yeah.

🌍 Connection ✨

Collecting memories.
Volunteering, serving, giving back in some capacity, as I visit each country.

No matter what town or city, I’m always grateful to Be.
Thankful to see a new day, let alone a new horizon, perspective, & hemisphere.

Love…is always in my ear
and always in this Air-
Sign
With a water rising
Jupiter approved to make moves
Even through
temporary wipeouts (thanks Saturn) the wave is always smoothe..

Cuz, it’s the peace of knowing I’m always where I’m meant to be
& Doing what I’m meant to do.

Acknowledging that change is the only constant
& happiness, love, peace, bliss, etc. comes from within
+
You are your own Hero & Saviour-it’s up to you whether you sink or swim
Good
In Frank Oceans
Know Thyself:
I am the medicine, I am the spell, I am the potion

I am the Source
& aligned with Source?

The force (alignment + magick ✨) is strong in this one.

& living life to the fullest, on my own fucking terms 🤟🏿

Future Hendrix

Queer

I had such a tremendous experience(s) this weekend. So much love. So much celebrating. So much quality time with people I don’t get to spend time with that often. It was simply beautiful.

& Also, TONS of work prepping for the ting. Being 1000% present & attentive during the ting.

After a successful, & I do mean full, day (week+ prep) celebrating the woman who helped anchor me to this world…I’m exhausted. Very grateful and very full (love, gratitude, community) and this morning I was prompted to slow tf down.

Please believe this was a v painful (thanks Saturn) reminder as I was carrying the bags of leftover 🗑 to the curb-think, cans, beer & wine bottles) I did some maneuver that was the wrong fucking way to maneuve 🤨 (move) apparently 😂 but that last bag sent me to my doctors office this morning.

& so, 1 steroid shot and a couple of prescriptions later, here I am.

Im actually writing in bed. Wondering if this shit gonna kick in to full gear or stall at 80%. Well. Grateful for everything that led me here, still. Cuz all that work and energy was absolutely worth it.

If being away from my family for 20+ years has taught me anything, it’s to cherish your fucking moments and especially, your people. So. I will never regret showing up and showing tf out, for my love, fam & friends. People should know (ofc not just on 1 day outta the year, no) consistently feel and know how much you care for and love them. We are placed here to love. & to enjoy ourselves-whatever tf that might look like to you.

& as I recognize the lessons in real time more and more now, I’m grateful for the shit. Cuz it only helps make me better.

Not insane, but I liked this gif

You gotta be it, to receive it (authentically)

& give it to yourself first, before ever trying to replenish your well.

Be your own water. You the well, too.

🤔 I think the muscle relaxer & anti inflammatory 💊 kickin in, lolol. That’s all the epiphanies from me (fa now 😎)

No rushing (Junkanoo)

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You know…it’s the small things, seemingly little things like… just the way I live my life now:

I don’t have to rush for things.

I’m never in a rush to do anything. Like before- in the past things seemed so “life or death” or “now or never”and I get it. Some shit is urgent, some tings are on a time crunch. But in general? my life, is not. The way I move in the world now, is not. & I’m so gd grateful.

Especially as a Life path 4 & heavy Saturn ruled person-plus- I have a Virgo Mars 🙂 I was born puttin in work 😂

So. To get out of my own work hard, work harder mode, took some…yep, you guessed it: work 😂

But damn I’m truly grateful to be here now: Flow. Alignment.

Give thanks.

And whilst we are here, lemme bless ya life wit some actual Junkanoo rushing from our beautiful island nation 🇧🇸

One Family Warriors

energetic transitions x Sade

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Yo. Ima need y’all to play “Paradise” by Sade.

Because this line specifically:

Oooh, what a life

Is my modus operandi- as I count my blessings (can’t really, they’re innumerable) and recount the amount of joy, bliss, blessings, and I mean…just miraculous ass shit-that is my life.

What a time.

What a ride.

What a life.

I’m so grateful. The lives that I’ve lived…the things I’ve been able to experience…wow. Give thanks.

Yo.

Don’t leave this plane with regrets. Try/do your best. And fucking remember to LIVE while you are alive. Life is so beautiful and there is so much to see, so many wonderful beings (human & animal) that you will encounter-that will continue to unlock more levels to your life story.

No one is sent to you, to us by accident. I have been and am absolutely blessed to have lived the way I live. To love the way I love. & to be loved. To be seen. Heard. Adored. Cared for, by the people that have come into my life.

And ofc not everyone was all good, had the best intentions, etc. but they were (& are, haters gonna hate forever I think) invaluable to me. Because their dishonesty, their betrayal, the hurt and tears that I have cried over some of them…was/is never in vain.

First of all, tears are healing. We are our own personal waterfall.

& these folks taught me some invaluable lessons; about life, myself and other human beings as we relate to one another. So. I call em lessons in growing and knowing your worth. Discernment. & keeping certain energies away from you and your aura.

Ok. Less time on them folx and more on love.

& I knowwwwwww (trust me I know) this cliché as fuck, but you gotta love yourself. Cuz once you really get there; to the core, down to your roots…you start living in your truth. You accept and love yourself & your authentic expression. And being grounded like that? With a healthy self concept…that’s a magickal ass place to be.

The love and respect that you have for yourself, will be reflected in your relationships. It affects who and what you align with.

And. What you tolerate and allow. Or don’t.

These connections will either nourish and sustain us, as we grow, evolve and age.

Or, will they drain us; our life force and energy.

Surround yourself with peace. & people who feel like home. Who you can absolutely be yourself around-there is no letting hair down. Cuz it was that way when you walked in the door.

Life is to precious and finite to feel discomfort in someone’s presence-based on familiarity, association, time spent..nah

The quality of your friendships and relationships in general, mirror the quality of your life I think.

And as someone who is 11th House ruled (my Aquarius sun + my Capricorn Venus is in the 11th) I have made/formed/created/sustained some pretty beautiful and bad ass connections & relationships with many wonderful humans from all walks of the planet (I’m also a Sagittarius moon 🛫)

Image from the artist, Raycos

To say I’ve lived a very…interesting (but fun, also enlightening, etc) life- from Atlanta to California and so many places in between and outside of that…is definitely an understatement. It’s been wild (not always the good kind 😂) but a hellova ride nonetheless and I take none of it for granted.

Looking forward to the new chapters of this book 😎🤙🏿

Forever…until, infinity

Queer

A love, a vibe, a connection. An undeniable fact:

Always
(Until the trees and seas just up and fly away)
Always
(Until the day that eight times eight times eight is four)
Always
(Until the day that is the day that are no more)
Did you know you’re loved by somebody
(Until the day the earth starts turnin’ right to left)
Always
(Until the earth just for the sun denies itself)
I’ll be lovin’ you forever
(Until dear mother nature says her work is through)
Always
(Until the day that you are me and I am you)
Always
(Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky
Until the ocean severs every mountain high)
Always mm mm

“As” by Stevie Wonder

A love. A bliss. A connection. Joy.…feelings, emotions & logic: all in alignment. And remembering the dream, the gift that is love requires no additional thought. Just feel.

I’ve been off from work for a few hours. & enjoying music from a time before. & the incomparable Mr. Wonder is playing on my Spotify playlist, “O.Geez”

Plus.

The temps and weather right now…is weathering

Clip/gif from the film, Forgetting Sarah Marshall (love that movie)

Yeah the temps rn on this particular island…is feeling like the temps in one of my favourite places to live: the Bay Area.

So. I’m happy. My fellow islanders, not so much 😂 but I love it and it feels great. Matter the fact, it feels/aligns with and matches my mood. Good asf. I love it. Give thanks. For a whole lotta tings, but rn, especially music. & especially this gratitude and genuine love that I am blessed and inundated with. Yeah. Alluhdat.

Roy, Mary, Airy

Queer

Life is amazing. I mean, of course it’s not perfect.

I have my very human moments of overthinking, anxiety…have you seen (been living in) the state of the world? Depression. Relationships with people you love dearly that need adjustment, or disengagement. & learning (doing your best 😬) to give yourself the same grace and compassion you extend to others. & simply navigating life and the world as a queer Black person.

I mean…

yeah.

Life be Lifeing.

But, the Sun always shines again…even if it ain’t tomorrow.

Some shit ain curable in a day let’s bffr.

But.

However…it does eventually.

And what a refreshing feeling.

It’s like…taking Lessons in Breathing*

Until it once again becomes automatic

Natural.

Beautiful.

Abundant Life all around you.

And.

Love ALL around you-

no longer sustaining oneself from a single source

that wasn’t you.

You appreciate the beautiful blues and remember that they are the same hues

As a tropical sky

Beauty:

Is

Within the eye

👁

Of the beholder.

What you believe

What you perceive

Your thoughts and thinking becoming things

Beloved…

Remember the sunshine. Do your best.

*shout out to the amazing Slam Poet Theresa Davis & her life-changing poem (She brought tears to my eyes during several different performances of this poem back in Atlanta)

“Breathing Lessons”

Real Love, bby

Queer

Comfort. Romancing the (rose quartz) stone.. Highest regard.

An external home with safekeeping and the warmest embrace.

The sweetest taboo…No ordinary love…Sade

A trusted, safe space.

Complete safety; emotionally and otherwise.

Ease. Flow.

Love and respect that never ceases or dissipates regardless of a disagreement

Or temporary static.

Comfort in the midst of temporary contrast…that gifts us with more clarity.

Understanding.

Empathy.

Compassion.

A love expounded

Love, compounded.

Real Love, bby.

~Syn

Black Beatles on the island

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Just got back in the house after filling up buckets of water and toting them into the belly of the beast- aka where the fire behind mine and my neighbors homes are. There are a couple hot spots left but I just doused them in water and hosed/sprayed 🚿 the shit outta those areas and the green vicinity.

This is a continuation of my adventures from yesterday in being an amateur firefighter when your actual one’s aren’t available/around/understaffed etc.

Yeah. Myself and my neighbors had a time from about…I wanna say 6pm yesterday when the wind blew the “small bush fire” that was 6 houses down, directly behind several of our homes.

& that bitch was mean. I mean…raging at times.

Kinda reminds you of an Aries…or a Taurus if they get to that point 🤬

I digress. Fun night (not at all) but very grateful that we are all safe as well as our homes/property/animals. Give thanks all day.

This post was initially not about me learning the importance of controlled burns and clearing the bush behind your property annually. But yeah no…Lessons acquired.

& I also gotta big up my neighbors because we really all came together and made sure the other was ok and helped water each other’s lawns while the actual fires were being blown closer to our properties and the embers were blowing in the trees, grass, roof…

Ok but…aside from that, here’s why the eff I started this entry:

I read something just now that said, “find your missing piece” in regards to dating/relating.

& my immediate thought after I rolled my eyes was:

I am my missing piece.

-me

Ain no way ima go around proclaiming and affirming to the Universe that I am incomplete or missing something, if I’m not attached to or coupled with someone. That’s wild as hell. Sounds like some serious spelling tbh; you making an agreement (and lk 🔑 putting a spell on yaself) by thinking and believing that someone else has to complete you. Shit. You gon be searching forever (outside of yourself) for something that you are responsible for;

i.e.

Completeness and wholeness externally

Your own happiness/bliss.

Ngl to you, I been there, too. Could’ve written a book!

But. Give thanks for growth! and learning that was a false premise.

Yeah. That’s all I got, rn. I’m lk 🔑 exhausted from being alert & up all night/morning watching the smoke & bush behind the house.

Nonetheless, I had to take a quick moment to write that last part. Didn’t think I was gonna talk about the first part, tbh. & here we are 😎

Life…is wild. & crazy beautiful. Give thanks.

Flipp Dinero (LMAA)

Queer

& That Natalie Imbruglia wybe: Just leave me alone

Yo.

No matter how many times I say it: “Come correct, or don’t come at all,”motherfuckers steady coming, lol.

If you can’t, if you are unable to give me the love that I need in this particular type of relationship dynamic, leave me tf alone.

I am graciously accepting and loving this life of peace & blessings that I have cultivated for myself so I would rather not allow half assed love/half ass attempts and especially not breadcrumbing. That shit is for birds.

I am no ones “option.” I am a priority; just as I would make the person in my life a priority.

So…I’ma say it again. Come correct or don’t come tf at all because it will not turn out well if you step into this sanctuary, with dirty feet.

& attempt to receive this abundant, beautiful, bountiful, healthy ass love from me-whilst not even being able to meet me halfway?

Half steppin just won’t work. & the way my 7th house is set up with those planets…We can make love or make war, it’s your choice. But I promise, I won’t be the mad one. & no one’s bullshit ass crumbs will steal my joy or disrupt my life. Them days over, bby. My peace is paramount & I will protect it.

Stay Ready ||2.18|| What a Life ✨

Queer

Usually…well, I don’t think I made a post last year But I would post something about my B’EarthDay on my IG feed…but this year? Ine into dat. I just…am realizing that I’m not much of a fan of having my personal life up for public consumption. Been posting less and less personal stuff on the socials for a while now. I’m accepting that this is the most comfortable and balanced I feel. So yeah no

But I will post here. No personal images or videos…but, gratitude. Which is enough for me. My cup runneth over ✨

I treat myself (I do my best-some days not so much) and am treated wonderfully by the Universe, my fam and dearest loves/loved ones.

Every day.

& In the ways that I show up for myself. The foods I intentionally consume and those that I stay away from. The intentional ways that I practice body movement, breathing exercises, take the time to meditate and incorporate healthier ways of being. Sticking to my morning routines. The ways that I speak to myself (the intrusive thoughts, too cuz I can overthink like a mf sometimes) but. Also what I allow and no longer allow. Having and sticking with my healthy boundaries. The life that I have cultivated that is inundated with peace. Abundance. & love. I am so much more aware of and grateful for my life and life in general.

I am extended thee most beautiful and divine love; stemming from my closest humans, to acquaintances and strangers alike.

I am grateful for every human that crosses my path. Whether it be for a reason, season &/or a lifetime…all tings align.

But yeah man..I’m just gonna continue on this path and gracefully and humbly accept all this beautiful ass love and life that I get to experience. It’s a blessing every day above ground.

Granted, some days that’s a lil hard to remember…because: being human. & Shit sucks sometimes…like shit 😂 but man. This ride has been wild af, like bat shit wild some of the things I’ve seen/lived/experienced…what a life. From ATL to the Bay. & errywhere in between…

I’ve had my share of setbacks, setups (ill-intentioned people, envious/jealous people will teach you A Lot of priceless gems and teach you how to better navigate life cuz it’s a lot of them mf’s in it) heartache and heartbreak…& I wouldn’t change that shit for anything. All it did was gift me with experience, lessons, wisdom, shadow work, discernment, a therapist! 😂😂 and the list continues with a whole lot of beautiful ass blessings along the way.

It led me here . To me. As I am now. I’m grateful af. Cuz it and I am only getting better and better. Refinement. More life 🥂 Give thanks ✨

V-day, New Girl

Queer

I really wanted to post this to remind myself just how beautiful (& paramount) authentic connection really is. I saw this video of Lauren London describing her ideal or a great date and I was like

My hilarious Leo ♌️ boo, Dan Levy aka David on Schitt’s Creek

& so. I did a quick lil mashup video with LL’s words and a tweet I found also reflective of my views/desires.

Authentic & genuine connection is very important to me. I once read something that said, “I don’t care if you’ve climbed Mount Everest or if you’ve never left your home town. The kind of love & how you give/receive/share love is what matters most” & I couldn’t agree more.

And!

Being able to kick it with my person, laugh, joke, sing off key together…just being able to enjoy my person as they are, is what I’m here for. I absolutely believe in the foundation of friendship & the utmost respect for one another in all moments. Having conversations about Agartha, to Game of Thrones, Insecure to to CRT. Free Palestine to the massacre of Saint Valentine, AI to Climate change…I’m here for all of it.

& being a Sagittarius Moon and MC…traveling is one of my most favourite things. So. Someone who I can travel with (because news flash, errybody ain’t for everyting and some people make horrible travel companions). But yeah. You gotta know yourself man. What you like/don’t like. What brings you joy. Shit that sets your soul on fire. Because if you can align with someone who adds to that flame and doesn’t try to (inadvertently or not) dim it…golden.

Know yaself. Love yourself. So you can return that same energy to another. I have a whole lot more shit to say, but also a meeting to attend. So.