I see pictures that are emailed
& I see them smiling
All happy & content
They have not failed as parents
Their son, is now getting married to a woman.
Not another man.
They breathe a sigh of right wing religious relief
My mum can’t say the same
She thinks she will never be as happy as them
Who got it right
How does one make up for this?
I see the church
The mother wearing purple sash and a shiny dress
The father: good Sunday suit with a handkerchief in his pocket
Smiles all around
I wonder sometimes…
Will I ever be able to fill such an holy building with family on my day?*
Or will the flames be too close to my feet that they feel they may get burned…
*I have zero desire to be in a church for any reason. Especially not the Divine union with my Goddess*