And always, home is where my heart is-beating faithfully within my chest.
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home is always with/within me.
first and foremost.
A reminder. A celebrationā¦
Mercury & Mars are direct.
& I had to recollect
the story of me
Of myā¦divinity
The fact that I am loved. & adored infinitelyā¦simplyā¦
because I exist.
Give thanks.
Me and bae in a dimly lit lounge.
Sippin drinks with clever names & shit hard to pronounce
We sip.
We stare into the eyes of each otherās abyss-
& welcome it
With open arms
I worship her body as a living, breathing psalmā¦
I booked us an exquisite suite
in the boutique-
hotel not too far from here
In our gay village, surrounded by community
Itās a full moon eclipse
we sip
&
Embrace our lunacyā¦
Two.
Too goddamn powerful to ever be tamed
Or,
Contained
Music is playing
āDiamondā by All Them Witches
You, look absolutely delicious.
Sittin. Pretty.
Ready
to be devoured
I, ready to oblige
Etta James-
damn, your eyes..
In this dimly lit room
She has that look
that lets me know, itās time to go..itās time to consume
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The power of your mindā¦& combine that with visualization?
You making shit happen āØ
Cuz look at how Mercedes saw Roulette & Whispers audition & in the mix of it, her mind took her to the stage, watching them headline and perform that routine-
Whichā¦they in fact did later on-JUST how Mercedes saw them in her mind at the audition.
Shit is wild.
& the power you possess is real.
What are you powering up/giving your power to?
What thoughts, what fears are you contemplating, visualizing, overthinking into existence?
Yes, you absolutely wield that type of power. Use that shit wisely, my loves.
When you ground and connect with your body
Connect with presence..you disconnect from consumption and overconsumption of media, background noise, even your favourite binge worthy shows. Shit is wild how uninterested you become in such things.
It just donāt hit the same.
Looking at my library at the classic and the legendary
Stillness, but not being sedentary.
Connectedness to sound and color
Emphasis on: presence in interpersonal relationships.
Support. Being there. & showing up.
Intentionally.
With a grateful heart
With clarity and abundance of appreciation for the moments that you get to spend and share with your favourite and closest people.
Disconnect, to connect.
Feel the feels usually repressed
Numbed and subdued
Consumer being consumed
With same day delivery
Post Modern Fillory
You are the magician of your own destiny
Tarot, pero
I truly appreciate a soft and thoughtful woman
Donāt get it twisted, she is a powerhouse & aināt nobody fuckin with her.
She chooses gentleness with me. & reminds me that no armor is ever necessary in her presence.
Coming from strong and unforgiving worlds, we never forget our ability to maintain peace, whilst being fluent in the art of war.
Because the world
Calls for Black girls
To always be on guard..
One of the things that Iāve realized about myself as I matured is that I like sentimental and cute shit. Take for instance a love letter.
Written by your most favourite person, in their own handwriting and with trace amounts of her signature & most intoxicating fragrance. Yeah. That.
& once I heard this song āStrawberry Letter #23ā I of course had to look up the lyrics and the song meaning-as told by its writer. I found this bit of info after a quick search:
The song was written by Shuggie Otis for his second album, Freedom Flight in 1971- as a way to describe his romantic feelings for his girlfriend. Though the lyrics commonly refer to “Strawberry Letter 22,” Otis explains that, “the song is about a love letter. The guy and the girl had written each other 22 love letters. And the 23rd one he writes is a song.
Call me whatever tf you want (either way idc) but thatās the type of shit I like. Sweet, sentimental. Romance. Intention. Attention to detailā¦& vulnerability. Expressing your deepest feelings & sentiments- & being so vibrationally free, so wholeheartedly and whole spirited-ly in the midst of such beautiful loveā¦that your words sound like you were on some type of psychedelic trip. I mean, check out these lyrics:
Hello, my love, I heard a kiss from you
Red magic satin playing near, too
All through the morning rain I gaze, the sun doesn’t shine
Rainbows and waterfalls run through my mind
In the garden, I see
West purple shower, bells and tea
Orange birds and river cousins dressed in green
Pretty music I hear, so happy and loud
Blue flower echo from a cherry cloudā¦
If you arrive and don't see me
I'm going to be with my baby
I am free, flying in her arms
Over the sea
Stained window, yellow candy screen
See speakers of kite
With velvet roses diggin'
Freedom flight
A present from you
Strawberry letter 22
The music plays
I sit in for a few
Yeah. Thatās the kind of love Iām talking about. Remembering that a huge part of your experienceā¦is to experience, love. In all of its glory.
So back to the love letter š and things of that nature. I also very much so love sweet little notes from my person. From those little sticky notes left on mirrors & placed strategically in places you will definitely see them (like in your car on the steering wheel), to voice notes. I love them all. I honestly love expressiveness and vulnerability in my romantic connection.
Likeā¦if Iām making you feel some type of way, I would love to know. I may be great at a lot of things, but being a hard core psychic or mind reader aināt one of em, lol. So. Iām very appreciative of the woman that takes the time and has the intention of letting me know exactly how she feels about me/us/our connection and relationship.
As Alina Baraz & Galimatias say: āshow me and Iām all yours.ā
& just for you, the song in subject:
How do you say:
I wanna dive deep wit you
Share energy, space, knowledge, wisdom & sheets, wit you
Silk, to Egyptian cotton
The art of courting seems to be lost on many, & to some-forgotten
& I wanna remind you & awaken the beast in you
Be peace with you
As we lay in the mutual space of love that time canāt erase
With me your heart is safe
My abundance of love is for you
How do youā¦
say this and so much more?
Like:
Mi amor
Only you I am here to worship and adore
As
Isā¦
I wrote this piece with someone in mind. As sort of a love poem, love affirmation and manifestation. But somewhere, somehow shit got lost in translationā¦lost in space. But found on time. I am grateful for all of my love& life teachers, regardless of length of stay. I love being inspired and moved to write words dedicated to love. Thatās the root. Everything else stems from that. So. I give thanks for presence and the essence of divinity. The reminder that love is beautiful and free. & the hope of a thing also makes life more beautiful.
Iām writing you poetry
And consistently show you
The love that you deserve
Intentionally, slowly
Unfold you like the most delicate petals of a rose
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I will leave you whole and not pluck you
But know every day I always wanna fuck you-
& love you. & I will always pick you
While leaving your roots room to grow, too
You are my Queen bee and my flower
Love you enough to relinquish power
& control
Behold, the ferocious Goddess
& thatās being modest
Cuz there arenāt enough words to describe your beauty
truly
Divine
You and I are truly aligned
The Universe and my Ancestors are so benevolent and kind
They way they placed us together
Youāre my most valued treasure
Loving you is so easy. Loving you takes no effort.
I give thanks for mutual effort
Mutual love and healthy obsession
Learning in real time that Iāve mastered the lessons
Every day I am in awe of your special
Gas you and fill you up until youāre an overflowing vessel
Of love that radiates
Nothing and no one predates
Our chemistry and energy
The way we love each other, intentionally
the generosity and blessings within our connection
Is unprecedented
You found me and gave to me-thee
Sweetest love
Your care, your affection and your time
Thank you for appreciating me
Thank you for adoring me
Thank you for reciprocity
and for loving and receiving me
Thank you for being solid
And easy like Sunday morning
A Sunday kind of love is what you give every day and itās what Iāve always wanted
Thank you for that beautiful smile
Thank you for taking the time to get to know me on deeper levels
Your love helped me discard that hard fixed sign shell
& invited me to openness
I will always love you on purpose
Each and every day
& in every way
You bring me such joy and cognizance
Learned to lead with my heart over the simply logical sense
I love our attraction, I love our passion-itās so intense
In the best ways
Iām excited to spend time with you knowing that these arenāt even my best days
I prayed
For someone like you and here you are
Love- a beautiful reminder that love knows no distance and is never far
away
I know that heaven is a place on Earth and itās with you
Every day is beautiful and better than the next
I love our openness
The vulnerability
We are on the road to free
Just had to make some stops along the way
I love when you message me, I love hearing your voice-it makes my night and day
So much better
I love reading your love letters
I love receiving your loveā¦and sharing mine with you
I created this video that I posted to my IG stories. I donāt see why my wordpress fam should be denied, lol.
& I would like to add that I appreciate & highly value: honesty, integrity…vulnerability (as long as she feels safe to be) and authenticity. A Goddess who isnāt afraid of growth. Someone who is loving, a kind human and affectionate..I like that shit
A Goddess of Sensuality with healthy boundaries. Worldly, i.e. loves to travel and experience new places, while appreciating the beauty in other cultures and ways of living.
She exudes femininity & has a sense humor/can be goofy and loves to laugh & be happy*
*I fuck with all the vibes, but just not the fake ones*
So Iāll never be one of those āpositive vibes onlyā people. Thatās like being a robot with no feelings & is just plain harmful & toxic. IMO. so yeah no. We all experience a range of emotions and being able to process & deal with them in a healthy way is the goal. Be angry, be pissed off, be moody if need be, just as long as we not suppressing our feelings, we good. Healthy communication is key. Healthy outlets and knowing oneself; for example my 12H Sun calls for isolation in order for me to process. & Iāve found that taking the necessary steps & space to do so works best. For me. So I want her to feel comfortable with feeling the big and sometimes not so pleasant feelings and do whatās best in her own ways of processing & healing. As long as weāre not sweeping š§¹ shit under the rug and lovingly & intentionally dealing with the opportunities (notice I didnāt say āproblemsā -because words are powerful) for growth and greater understanding of ourselves and one another.
Soooo, yeah healthy communication is paramount. As is emotional intelligence. & Being cognizant of each otherās love languages. Respect. Even in difficult times.
Loyalty and commitment to one other is also high on my list of things that I value…as an Aqua Sun, Capricorn Venus also respecting each otherās autonomy and monogamy. Stable foundations and co-creation, not co-dependency.
If thereās anything else I think of that aligns I will add to this further. But yeah…
Energy never lies. Humans do, Lol. Energy, does not. But Iām not even speaking on someone just flat out lying. Iām speaking on…how do I best translate my exact sentiments into words….ok, Iāll start here:
Being divine, but still very human…in times of uncertainty, perhaps even fear; fear of the unknown, fear of change, fear of something or someone that comes into our lives unexpectedly & flips our shit inside and out (in a good way)…&/or being out of your comfort zone (as a fixed sign-that will forever be one of our challenges) but also one of our greatest opportunities to expand and grow. Ok what the shit am I rambling about today, you ask? lol, Iām getting to it.
I was scrolling through my gallery & saw a screenshot of a previous post featuring the words of Harvey Milk. Which Iām about to share below & hopefully you have a better understanding of wtf Iām talking about:
Donāt let people happen to you…don’t let me happen to you…
Harvey Milk
The more I read his words, the more I realize that he was so in tune. With self. With being present. With acknowledging and accepting just how beautiful and intentional love- & people who show up and remind you of love, humans who appear and bring us back on course, is. Well, not to say that we are necessarily off course. Because Iām a huge advocate for finding and becoming the happiness, love, etc. first and foremost, as opposed to seeking it solely and wholly outside of yourself.
Nah, what I mean is the course of divine love that shows up in the form of other humans. Even in the most seemingly inoppurtune times or not perfect or ideal situations.
Being fearless & open to the possibility of a thing. Saying yes, this is what I aligned with, this thing is worthy of my yes, to begin with.
Raw. & unguarded.
No filter. No armor. Just feelings. Feelings that you trust because you know yourself. Youāve healed yourself from heartaches & heartbreak that you once thought there was no coming back from. Youāve loved yourself into discernment & intuition that is aligned with the divine plans of your beloved Ancestors and spirit guides. So…you know. You know whatās real because you feel it. & trusting your journey and your path as it unfolds…know that everyone is on purpose.
Calm. Breathing Lessons by Theresa Davis. Thatās the shit I need to remember seeing performed and how my heart sank and tears escaped my eyes back then…back when…I was afraid to love openly and honestly.
I’m present now. & Like Miss Simone sang:
Itās a new dawn. Itās a new day. Itās a new life
Feeling Good
& I choose to be seen and expose: the work that had to be done, layers that had to be removed and all the ways I had to come apart and unfold…to now wear my heart on my sleeve.
So. I read and receive these words by Milk. Reminding of being in the flowā¦plus the urgency of expressing and sharing love, intentionally-if Iām not to happen to you, or you me.
Sans fear. Sans ego. Sansā¦anything that you use to deny yourself of the beautiful connections & embrace of genuine and divine love.
She said āyesā
To herself
& decided to grow a garden that was always tended to
No matter who
Was around or absent
Gave herself the biggest gift: being present
Accepting love from whole sources-no exceptions
Or expectations
In love. Pure meditation
Elevation
of energies to higher realms
No longer trying to be her higher self
Only her favourite
Completely sacred
Knowing that time is never wasted
Once you stop fakin
Or settling for the mundane
Life and love equally should be experienced passionately
Itās my passion to be:
The love of my life before someone else can become the same to me
She said āyesā to belonging to herself, faithfully
Before we shared love, energy and time
A supreme being. & a love sublime
We share and exhale
Inhale the newness of completeness
Oh darling, we have only just begun the sweetness...
Dame dulzura
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So. Not only did I JUST post a Blog/Journal entry about me and a married woman, but RIGHT after I post said entry, I get a Notification of a new email. Cool. I check it. & it’s a new post from a fellow Blogger more on the Spiritual level.
And
Um.yea so.
Just as I let it Go. & I released it by erasing all contacts, willingly b/c my Soul finally made its way back to the surface (Gratitude for that!)
Agh
That’s a breath full
But.
As I was saying…as I made this decision from a place of Love, the Universe confirmed BIG time my decision by sending me this via email and having me read/receive this particular message that was right on time. Give thanks.
I heard the Voice
Of the Divine
Saying these words to me. Comforting me within my discomfort. As opposed to a Distant Lover.
Growth can hurt sometimes…
But. I’m chillin. iPod on shuffle & Helen Folasade Adu’s lyrics transform from needing/seeking Love from the external, to receiving/accepting the Love from within
From the Source.
“By Your Side” by Sade
“You think I’d leave your side baby
You know me better than that
You think I’d leave you down when you’re down on your knees
I wouldn’t do that
I’ll tell you you’re right when you want
Ha ah ah ah ah ah
And if only you could see into me
Oh, when you’re cold
I’ll be there
Hold you tight to me
When you’re on the outside baby and you can`t get in
I will show you you’re so much better than you know
When you’re lost and you’re alone and you can’t get back again
I will find you darling and I will bring you home
And if you want to cry
I am here to dry your eyes
And in no time
You’ll be fine
You think I’d leave your side baby
You know me better than that
You think I’d leave you down when you’re down on your knees
I wouldn’t do that
I’ll tell you you’re right when you want
Ha ah ah ah ah ah
And if only you could see into me
Oh when you’re cold
I’ll be there
Hold you tight to me
Oh when you’re low
I’ll be there
By your side baby
Oh when you’re cold
I’ll be there
Hold you tight to me
Oh when you’re low
I’ll be there
By your side baby”
I love Divine Reminders! Thank you, Sade. Give thanks for music and the muses.
Queer, Gifted & Black 