connection

Magnum Opus

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Ofc I’m gonna keep talking. Because I’m currently listening to this song on my playlist called:

Romancing the (rose quartz) Stone

& it triggered a core memory of gayness. Story time:

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*also good to remember: In other peoples stories, projections and perceptions of you; you will be a hero to some, & the villain & big bad wolf to others. Try not to take it too personally. We are being perceived from so many angles at times, people forget to search the Source-themselves first. I mean, we play our parts, according to our own awareness right? Lessons & shit we need to learn? Well. Some people are just shitty, horrible people & they’re quite aware of it 😂

Sooo. This:

Artist: dvsn Song: The Line

When I first heard this beautiful ass, long ass song…ine ga lie, my shit was blown 🤯 bc it was so perfectly sung and executed..a piece of my soul felt cracked open. It felt like I was levitating. Also my soft ass (grateful for this placement tho, lk 🔑) Pisces ♓️ rising fell ALL the way in love with the lyrics. The thought & possibility of loving & being loved this thoroughly, openly & deep again..i. Well, back to the song.

The Line. How can you not help but to feel shit upon hearing it? It’s almost haunting, right before he begins the first verse. & that moaning/mumble singing in the background-that longing, an undeniable love that is being boldly proclaimed… Love that stretches from the heavens and extends from the Cosmos, down to where the light will never touch- in the depths of the deepest ocean.

& that feeling continues throughout the entirety of the song. So to say that I played it a million times, would be a lie. It was 2 million 😂

The lyrics…I really can go on about this song forever. But I need to take my ass to bed. So back to the 🏳️‍🌈 memory:

I was invited to a family dinner with a group of us lgbtq folx, thrown by my friend who happens to be an amazing award winning Chef, & her fiancée. The food was being laid out & presented so beautifully & being that her fiancée is also a music head, she decided that it was time to “put us on”.

Me:

I told them that they HAD to hear that song 🎵 that I was currently obsessed with. They indulged me (bc my musical taste is awesome 👅)

I played that track. Everyone stopped what they were doing and sat there. Fast forward a few weeks later & I get a phone call from them both, thanking me for helping them select the perfect song for their wedding (told ya my taste was awesome 😂) & at the actual ceremony when they played the song…it was forever etched into my soul; a song of love everlasting, shared by two souls vowing to embrace, support & love one another…& knowing the love that those two humans have for each other…makes it even more beautiful & meaningful. This song allowed me to witness and be a part of all that magical, radical ass love. Give thanks.

Tings I into x AB 🕊✨

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Dead Poets Society 🕊 ✨

I’m interested in authentic connection… A life filled with an abundance of love, art/music , travel, romance.

And,

Hand written poetry
Fucking your soul into the Cosmos
& co-creating love, to “Say Yes” by Floetry
Midnight soaks in a clawfoot tub
Love letters to, and from my love…

& Writing love letters to life…by simply living & experiencing it. & doing my best to not ever take any of it for granted.

I have such a habit-of digressing. Back to this blessing [Life]

& tings I into

Traveling the world on a foodie & culturally centered type itinerary
Complementary energy;
Easy, like Sunday Morning


Lionel Richie Rich
in love, life, experience
Adventuring, learning & expanding
appreciating every step & every person


Every ting…along this path
Is for my growth and advancement
I like slow meals and a slow dance
Proper romance
That continues to expand 
& blossom
Locally led food tours
10 courses
via 711 horses
Or
Hiking in the jungle, to freshly foraged ingredients
Breaking bread, crossing cultures
Ancestral wisdom & veneration of lineage
Exchanging energy, history, love & community, appreciating (there goes that gratitude again. I’m telling ya, it really changes & shifts shit) but yeah.

🌍 Connection ✨

Collecting memories.
Volunteering, serving, giving back in some capacity, as I visit each country.

No matter what town or city, I’m always grateful to Be.
Thankful to see a new day, let alone a new horizon, perspective, & hemisphere.

Love…is always in my ear
and always in this Air-
Sign
With a water rising
Jupiter approved to make moves
Even through
temporary wipeouts (thanks Saturn) the wave is always smoothe..

Cuz, it’s the peace of knowing I’m always where I’m meant to be
& Doing what I’m meant to do.

Acknowledging that change is the only constant
& happiness, love, peace, bliss, etc. comes from within
+
You are your own Hero & Saviour-it’s up to you whether you sink or swim
Good
In Frank Oceans
Know Thyself:
I am the medicine, I am the spell, I am the potion

I am the Source
& aligned with Source?

The force (alignment + magick ✨) is strong in this one.

& living life to the fullest, on my own fucking terms 🤟🏿

energetic transitions x Sade

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Yo. Ima need y’all to play “Paradise” by Sade.

Because this line specifically:

Oooh, what a life

Is my modus operandi- as I count my blessings (can’t really, they’re innumerable) and recount the amount of joy, bliss, blessings, and I mean…just miraculous ass shit-that is my life.

What a time.

What a ride.

What a life.

I’m so grateful. The lives that I’ve lived…the things I’ve been able to experience…wow. Give thanks.

Yo.

Don’t leave this plane with regrets. Try/do your best. And fucking remember to LIVE while you are alive. Life is so beautiful and there is so much to see, so many wonderful beings (human & animal) that you will encounter-that will continue to unlock more levels to your life story.

No one is sent to you, to us by accident. I have been and am absolutely blessed to have lived the way I live. To love the way I love. & to be loved. To be seen. Heard. Adored. Cared for, by the people that have come into my life.

And ofc not everyone was all good, had the best intentions, etc. but they were (& are, haters gonna hate forever I think) invaluable to me. Because their dishonesty, their betrayal, the hurt and tears that I have cried over some of them…was/is never in vain.

First of all, tears are healing. We are our own personal waterfall.

& these folks taught me some invaluable lessons; about life, myself and other human beings as we relate to one another. So. I call em lessons in growing and knowing your worth. Discernment. & keeping certain energies away from you and your aura.

Ok. Less time on them folx and more on love.

& I knowwwwwww (trust me I know) this cliché as fuck, but you gotta love yourself. Cuz once you really get there; to the core, down to your roots…you start living in your truth. You accept and love yourself & your authentic expression. And being grounded like that? With a healthy self concept…that’s a magickal ass place to be.

The love and respect that you have for yourself, will be reflected in your relationships. It affects who and what you align with.

And. What you tolerate and allow. Or don’t.

These connections will either nourish and sustain us, as we grow, evolve and age.

Or, will they drain us; our life force and energy.

Surround yourself with peace. & people who feel like home. Who you can absolutely be yourself around-there is no letting hair down. Cuz it was that way when you walked in the door.

Life is to precious and finite to feel discomfort in someone’s presence-based on familiarity, association, time spent..nah

The quality of your friendships and relationships in general, mirror the quality of your life I think.

And as someone who is 11th House ruled (my Aquarius sun + my Capricorn Venus is in the 11th) I have made/formed/created/sustained some pretty beautiful and bad ass connections & relationships with many wonderful humans from all walks of the planet (I’m also a Sagittarius moon 🛫)

Image from the artist, Raycos

To say I’ve lived a very…interesting (but fun, also enlightening, etc) life- from Atlanta to California and so many places in between and outside of that…is definitely an understatement. It’s been wild (not always the good kind 😂) but a hellova ride nonetheless and I take none of it for granted.

Looking forward to the new chapters of this book 😎🤙🏿

Forever…until, infinity

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A love, a vibe, a connection. An undeniable fact:

Always
(Until the trees and seas just up and fly away)
Always
(Until the day that eight times eight times eight is four)
Always
(Until the day that is the day that are no more)
Did you know you’re loved by somebody
(Until the day the earth starts turnin’ right to left)
Always
(Until the earth just for the sun denies itself)
I’ll be lovin’ you forever
(Until dear mother nature says her work is through)
Always
(Until the day that you are me and I am you)
Always
(Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky
Until the ocean severs every mountain high)
Always mm mm

“As” by Stevie Wonder

A love. A bliss. A connection. Joy.…feelings, emotions & logic: all in alignment. And remembering the dream, the gift that is love requires no additional thought. Just feel.

I’ve been off from work for a few hours. & enjoying music from a time before. & the incomparable Mr. Wonder is playing on my Spotify playlist, “O.Geez”

Plus.

The temps and weather right now…is weathering

Clip/gif from the film, Forgetting Sarah Marshall (love that movie)

Yeah the temps rn on this particular island…is feeling like the temps in one of my favourite places to live: the Bay Area.

So. I’m happy. My fellow islanders, not so much 😂 but I love it and it feels great. Matter the fact, it feels/aligns with and matches my mood. Good asf. I love it. Give thanks. For a whole lotta tings, but rn, especially music. & especially this gratitude and genuine love that I am blessed and inundated with. Yeah. Alluhdat.

Real Love, bby

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Comfort. Romancing the (rose quartz) stone.. Highest regard.

An external home with safekeeping and the warmest embrace.

The sweetest taboo…No ordinary love…Sade

A trusted, safe space.

Complete safety; emotionally and otherwise.

Ease. Flow.

Love and respect that never ceases or dissipates regardless of a disagreement

Or temporary static.

Comfort in the midst of temporary contrast…that gifts us with more clarity.

Understanding.

Empathy.

Compassion.

A love expounded

Love, compounded.

Real Love, bby.

~Syn

Flipp Dinero (LMAA)

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& That Natalie Imbruglia wybe: Just leave me alone

Yo.

No matter how many times I say it: “Come correct, or don’t come at all,”motherfuckers steady coming, lol.

If you can’t, if you are unable to give me the love that I need in this particular type of relationship dynamic, leave me tf alone.

I am graciously accepting and loving this life of peace & blessings that I have cultivated for myself so I would rather not allow half assed love/half ass attempts and especially not breadcrumbing. That shit is for birds.

I am no ones “option.” I am a priority; just as I would make the person in my life a priority.

So…I’ma say it again. Come correct or don’t come tf at all because it will not turn out well if you step into this sanctuary, with dirty feet.

& attempt to receive this abundant, beautiful, bountiful, healthy ass love from me-whilst not even being able to meet me halfway?

Half steppin just won’t work. & the way my 7th house is set up with those planets…We can make love or make war, it’s your choice. But I promise, I won’t be the mad one. & no one’s bullshit ass crumbs will steal my joy or disrupt my life. Them days over, bby. My peace is paramount & I will protect it.

Only, then

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Only, then.
…only, if it feels sacred.
Like our bodies in motion…are in meditation.
Worshiping the Divine within one another.

Only then.
My Instagram story featuring Dreka & Kevin Gates’ IG Reel.

I was inspired to write those words. And reminded of connection. Divine order. & not fighting the Universe, ourselves or each other. No.

Only…complete Surrender. To love. Only, then.

Because fear. Feeding crumbs.

I want More. The heavens, cosmos. & beyond.

Only, then.

-Syn

Don’t Wake The Dead x Salt Life

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I hate sounding cliché. & this is probably gonna sound cliché as hell, but 2023 is definitely a year of change. Good change. Well…I guess all change is good. Idk if I can speak for that for every single case/person, but the good change? Yeah that’s that shit I’m on.

Ok but Wtf does this have to do with the dead?

Every-fucking-thing.

Because there are a couple people in my life, with all love- I choose not to resuscitate the connections.

Excavating the same grave

& expecting new life

When only toxicity is resurrected every time…

Connection 2:

2022

with her was…bird food.

& because of my very strong like, allowed myself to be breadcrumbed

Succumbed

To lust

& pretty potential

When in actuality

reality: this toy was shiny

But still a gun.

Capable of

An inescapable fog and inexplicable buzz

But.

Love

And Saturn returning me to center.

Shadow work and

Two names on parchment and

Let it burn 🔥

What is dead, is no longer

That’s what the fuck I call higher learning.

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Message in a bottle (Mummy Dearest)

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After Mercury. & After Mars.
They both retrograde right now. & it was by the grace of the twitter gods that reminded me of this astrological occurrence with those 2 planets.

Still. I hopped on WhatsApp and began typing a message to my mum.
Some of the realest shit I ever wrote.

I have some things I need to get off of my chest. Release this negative energy and this pressure in my heart. Because holding things in, makes ppl explode. And it’s counterproductive to any type of growth.

Why do you volunteer information that no one asked you for?

It seems like whenever (especially) you are feeling some type of way about me, you always do that. Say something to try and embarrass me or put me down in some way, in front of others.

Why do you do that? It’s so toxic and unnecessary. And just, the actions of someone who doesn’t like or actually hates the other person. That’s how you make me feel. Please stop doing this. It’s embarrassing for the both of us esp when it’s front of people.

Tonight…tonight I am accepting FINALLY that some generational curses, maybe just can’t be broken. Because the toxic bonds/relationships and the horrible ways we handle, treat & mistreat one another…being BLOOD related…Has got to be a curse. With the exception of aunt L and her children, we are cursed with toxicity with the women and their children. 

The proof is all there. & I can’t change anything and want to do better and be better, for the both of us. To not want to have a bad relationship with my mother like Y & AV. C and AV. All of you sisters. Once you all get angry you completely cut each other off and move on. That’s so unhealthy and so toxic.

No one apologizes. No one is accountable. We just have attitudes and stop speaking to each other. Where is the love???? Where is the compassion and understanding that we have for everyone else, but each other?

Doing the same thing, being the same harmful, mean, hurtful person…and expecting different results, is called insanity.

I feel like a stranger compared to the way you treat other people. Like you prefer everyone else on the planet as your child or adopted child, over me. This is how I feel. & it breaks my heart. This ya how I’ve felt for as long as I can remember.

I don’t want to live a stressful uncomfortable life. & Nobody wants to walk on eggshells as you put it. Or be in negative ass energy. I feel like emotionally and psychologically, I’m regressing here.

In this life I’ve learned that some people…just do better loving each other, from a distance.

It’s a hard pill to swallow when it’s a personal truth, but I have to acknowledge and accept that this path and the way we are with each other when things go left, is not healthy. It’s not good. & this is why I’ve made the decision to detach from this toxicity.

A/V Output

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Being/feeling not grounded, sucks. You notice the imbalance easier once you start living intentionally, authentically & paying tf attention.

I tried to pay attention but attention paid me.

-she will

& for that to happen (for me) I have to cut out the noise & the distractions. The demands of the outside world that holds your peace…hostage. 

Until you…
sick of making plea deals for your own sanity
Get a grip…
on reality
Unplug from this…
status:connected (but very disconnected) fantasy

& get back to nature. Which is also meaning to get back to the root: get back to you.

It gets easier once you start to strip away layers of agreements that were made-with and without your consent.

The peace…of saying “no” is unmatched. & not in a mean, stingy way of being…nah. In a selfish way of being. Yeah, selfish. If that means taking care of self, I’m for it. Not harmful to others or cruel. No.

Caring for others…comes secondary to caring for you.

You are the root.

Water. You need water.

All dem Brujas

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Me and bae in a dimly lit lounge.
Sippin drinks with clever names & shit hard to pronounce


We sip.
We stare into the eyes of each other’s abyss-
& welcome it
With open arms
I worship her body as a living, breathing psalm…

I booked us an exquisite suite
in the boutique-
hotel not too far from here

In our gay village, surrounded by community

It’s a full moon eclipse
we sip
&
Embrace our lunacy…

Two.

Too goddamn powerful to ever be tamed
Or,
Contained

Music is playing
“Diamond” by All Them Witches

You, look absolutely delicious.

Sittin. Pretty.
Ready
to be devoured


I, ready to oblige
Etta James-
damn, your eyes..

In this dimly lit room
She has that look
that lets me know, it’s time to go..it’s time to consume
🔥

Whisper, Roulette & that Woo-woo shit

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  • Mercedes
  • Mind Power/Mind Control
  • Visualization

The power of your mind…& combine that with visualization?

You making shit happen ✨

Cuz look at how Mercedes saw Roulette & Whispers audition & in the mix of it, her mind took her to the stage, watching them headline and perform that routine-

Which…they in fact did later on-JUST how Mercedes saw them in her mind at the audition.

Shit is wild.

& the power you possess is real.

What are you powering up/giving your power to?

What thoughts, what fears are you contemplating, visualizing, overthinking into existence?

Yes, you absolutely wield that type of power. Use that shit wisely, my loves.

Sprite Lightning (General Observation)

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Personal to Partnership

rare electrical discharges called sprites high above the clouds. A photographer in China captured this phenomenon on May 9. via Accuweather

You can like someone as a person-
what they stand for, how they think and move in the world
how great of a parent they are…
but that still doesn’t make them compatible with you, as your partner.