Closets, Closets, Closets
It’s where we keep our stuff.
Sometimes, it’s where the ones around us, the ones who claim to love and care about us…the ones we also love the most…want us to store, hide and compartmentalize;
the parts that they, their friends, surrounding and immediate communities wants us to keep hidden and locked away. Because it’s more comfortable for them, as long as that part of us is stuffed in there-without a trace, without a say.
Now, the catch is, living here on this island and in this country- even though the doors are welcomed to be open, there’s always someone there dangling locks and keys in your face, when your stuff is too boldly displayed.
wait, but not like that…
Your Paradise Is My Hell.
I Suppress Where You Vacation.
Paradise? Nah, been lost.
I usually keep my hair shaved pretty low on the sides. So I went on Instagram and searched for the least threatening/aggressive/misogynistic seeming barber on island to get a haircut since I had been back home for a while and was long overdue. Found some cool looking dudes. & got some inches off the top and back to the usual, close on the side. In barber terms i'd say probably a 1.Got home to the displeasure of my aunt and my mum, by the looks on their faces, they hated it.
I don’t like it, I like your hair when it’s longer-my Aunt
Make sure you don’t cut your hair anymore. I don’t like you looking so much like a boy…-my Mum
According to astrology I'm in my profection year that deals with family and roots. & I'm reminded why I left this place in the first place. All those years of being away from these prominent figures and triggers This trauma and drama & these closets & half ass acceptance receiving whatsapp messages on repentance feels like i'm serving a sentence in a picturesque hell be you; but make sure you hide that gay shit well lest you be the topic of conversation in a "christian nation" I Suffer Where You Vacation Facing constant backlash and retaliation simply for existing as me Never free & if you dare to be- here comes that lock and key