astrology

Tina Montana

Queer

Yo. You know one of THEE hardest and most hurtful things to have to deal with is?

Realizing that some of your own family members are the biggest fucking haters. Like, the fam that you fuck with fr..THAT shit? THAT realization?

Bey, een easy. Cuz you love them. & you only want to see them: happy, blessed, etc.

but. 1 ting bout that crabs in a bucket mentality, that shit is gone show it’s ugly fucking truth, through people you never thought it would be….

But..fuck does it teach you duality. To be able to love someone, show them that love-

& to always be very cognizant of the things you share. Regarding your personal life and growth and as things progress for you.

& thanks to the beautiful and powerful love that I received from one of our Ancestors, when she was here on this earth:

if this person needed anything, I’m there. Because of the family ties. Because, other than this undercover hater ass energy…they really are amazing & have been there for me. Been that familiar supportive energy when I needed it most. Extended and shared plenty love.

I’m grateful. & Certainly a lot more cognizant.

Dr. Maya Angelou ✨🕊

And

Tiq Milan

I’m…here’s some shit to know bout me, astrologically:

I have Jupiter in the house ruled by Scorpio.

Ima love genuinely and authentically as I been doing.

I Just….Know when to hold ‘em, & know when to fold em.

And distance can be achieved-whilst still being close to someone. I don’t really know how else to describe that. But. It’s definitely a thing.

Ah. Life. Shit is wild. But. Press on, we must. With love & gratitude for the lessons and continued blessings. And, protection 🧿 🪬 yah

energetic transitions x Sade

Queer

Yo. Ima need y’all to play “Paradise” by Sade.

Because this line specifically:

Oooh, what a life

Is my modus operandi- as I count my blessings (can’t really, they’re innumerable) and recount the amount of joy, bliss, blessings, and I mean…just miraculous ass shit-that is my life.

What a time.

What a ride.

What a life.

I’m so grateful. The lives that I’ve lived…the things I’ve been able to experience…wow. Give thanks.

Yo.

Don’t leave this plane with regrets. Try/do your best. And fucking remember to LIVE while you are alive. Life is so beautiful and there is so much to see, so many wonderful beings (human & animal) that you will encounter-that will continue to unlock more levels to your life story.

No one is sent to you, to us by accident. I have been and am absolutely blessed to have lived the way I live. To love the way I love. & to be loved. To be seen. Heard. Adored. Cared for, by the people that have come into my life.

And ofc not everyone was all good, had the best intentions, etc. but they were (& are, haters gonna hate forever I think) invaluable to me. Because their dishonesty, their betrayal, the hurt and tears that I have cried over some of them…was/is never in vain.

First of all, tears are healing. We are our own personal waterfall.

& these folks taught me some invaluable lessons; about life, myself and other human beings as we relate to one another. So. I call em lessons in growing and knowing your worth. Discernment. & keeping certain energies away from you and your aura.

Ok. Less time on them folx and more on love.

& I knowwwwwww (trust me I know) this cliché as fuck, but you gotta love yourself. Cuz once you really get there; to the core, down to your roots…you start living in your truth. You accept and love yourself & your authentic expression. And being grounded like that? With a healthy self concept…that’s a magickal ass place to be.

The love and respect that you have for yourself, will be reflected in your relationships. It affects who and what you align with.

And. What you tolerate and allow. Or don’t.

These connections will either nourish and sustain us, as we grow, evolve and age.

Or, will they drain us; our life force and energy.

Surround yourself with peace. & people who feel like home. Who you can absolutely be yourself around-there is no letting hair down. Cuz it was that way when you walked in the door.

Life is to precious and finite to feel discomfort in someone’s presence-based on familiarity, association, time spent..nah

The quality of your friendships and relationships in general, mirror the quality of your life I think.

And as someone who is 11th House ruled (my Aquarius sun + my Capricorn Venus is in the 11th) I have made/formed/created/sustained some pretty beautiful and bad ass connections & relationships with many wonderful humans from all walks of the planet (I’m also a Sagittarius moon 🛫)

Image from the artist, Raycos

To say I’ve lived a very…interesting (but fun, also enlightening, etc) life- from Atlanta to California and so many places in between and outside of that…is definitely an understatement. It’s been wild (not always the good kind 😂) but a hellova ride nonetheless and I take none of it for granted.

Looking forward to the new chapters of this book 😎🤙🏿

Saturn in Pisces

Queer

I no longer wish to subscribe to,

participate in

Or be…ripped to shreds

By: this generational curse

Look at what you done to me

You put a gun to me

Then you brought the Sun to me.

“Stay Ready” (What A Life) by Jhene Aiko featuring Kendrick Lamar
Your proverbial gun led me to the Sun 
& my way out of the darkness
It was…acceptance
Grief. Every stage
It seemed like, all…in one day

Give thanks. That contrast begets clarity
Producing astonishing colours & never to be to duplicated art-
These tears
cleansing this cycle of insanity

Offering more love
&,
offering more of…broken trust
Thrown back to me
Adorned on a golden, Venusian platter
I will always choose love…over the latter
I choose my peace, over this natural disaster
Protection and self preservation
And.
I can’t heal a wound, whilst allowing it to be constantly re-injured.

Saturn.
Pisces.
Retrograde, natal.

And if your goals include healing, growth, &/or moving on from things, people, substances, escapism. . .etc that don’t fuel your best, nor well-interest, higher good or well-being…

You know what it is. Nouns: person, place or tings.

Release what is no longer yours to carry & never forget that Your journey is personal. And healing isn’t linear.

Love & above ☝🏾 ✨

~Syn

Oh. Here is an article on Saturn in Pisces by Chani Nicholas (also where the post image is from). She’s one of the professional astrologers that I follow on a couple socials:

What You Need to Know About Saturn in Pisces

I go back to…(Castle) black.

Queer

You know…as I go through life and I meet new interesting, fascinating, amazing human beings it amazes me every single time when I come across people who go from relationship to relationship to relationship without any time in between.

Time for yourself. To heal. To deal. Time for self reflection, introspection, self actualization…shit any reflection in general, having time to breathe and process without adding an additional energy to your mix.

Someone once ended a 15+ year relationship (2 women) and by day 3, my friend was dating someone else. I’m just like 😳 because how does one do that…

I mean…yes, you’re getting experience because you’re experiencing other people in relationships and having to navigate the highways & byways of that going on…but like…to not ever spend ANY time alone is so wild to me.

I can’t even fathom mixing up someone new energy-with all that lingering energy and unprocessed shit from the last person/relationship.

& I think it also must be my 12H placements talking because I be needing all the space and all the time to get my shit/self together. Before, during and after dealing with someone in that capacity, especially.

12 House tings

Too

Queer

And always, home is where my heart is-beating faithfully within my chest.

👁 e

home is always with/within me.

first and foremost.

A reminder. A celebration…

Mercury & Mars are direct.

& I had to recollect
the story of me
Of my…divinity
The fact that I am loved. & adored infinitely…simply…
because I exist.
Give thanks.

Sometimes…you gotta stay ready

Queer 

Sometimes,
I just wanna bare my soul
Release all this weight from this heart of gold

& simply,
Let it be
Rest
in another’s thoughts, another’s regard…in another context
We both fixed signs so we test on who does stubborn the best
I guess…
We both do.

I jest, 
but I’m no fool
The Emperor and Magician
Qing of Pentacles, Capricorn Venus

Jupiter in Scorpio
7H Virgo…The meanest, cleanest
Rawest love
That water love

Sometimes inundates
Those coming from being used to half ass, low vibrational plates

There’s only so much we can leave to fate

2 individuals on their individual missions
Gotta share that Mariah Carey, vision
Of love

That feels like…
Soaking under the full moon wit your lover in a claw foot tub 🛀 
absolute peace
It could all be…if we ready

“You not a tree, you can move!” Coach Stormy

Also. I find it VERY interesting that Coach Stormy has an Aquarius AND a Leo stellium 💀🫠 Here is a couple tweets about her astrology:

“I’m Glowin The Fuck Up!” -Lil Murda

Queer

I used that line from 1 of my fave shows, P-Valley. If you follow any of my other socials (Twitter, Instagram) then you know how much I absolutely love this show.

Ok. So why tf is that line the title of this post?

Because I felt like it. & I felt like it because the moments that I experienced leading up to even thinking of that line, had me feeling like Murda when Keyshawn showed him the WSHH feature with them. That energy. That Soul Glo ✨ cuz you now in the process of mining ⛏ your own diamonds…& once you realize…that you are also the Diamond 💎 game fucking changer.

What a time. What a life, Jhene Aiko. Seeing your shit come to fruition-in the divinely timed order it’s sposed to ✨

The feeling of having pride in your work and what the fuck you put out into the world. & also tremendous gratitude for what was, what’s happening rn and for allllll the beautiful, magical, wonderful experiences coming.

Give thanks. Gratitude for the doors and windows 🪟 that’s opening for me-& the right ones at that. The ones that feel good. That feel at ease. That feel joyful. That’s for my highest good & the highest good if all involved. Them joints that feel right & aligned ✨ give thanks.

PODCAST: The Joyful Experience

I am so pleased, so grateful and sooo excited to be sharing this Podcast & more of myself with you.

As you will hear in the Podcast, I am a 12H sun. With Jupiter in my 8H…Capricorn Mercury and Venus…ine into foolishness.

This 12H energy has me in the cut working on self in several ways, which I’m not mad about at all. & sometimes, I am beckoned to “show my face” & in this case, share my voice.

So. Here I Am.

& I am absolutely delighted to be able to share some of my innermost thoughts & feels regarding dating and mating with Astrology-& how you relate to your own birth chart.

Big up and Big love to all of the professional astrologers that have guided me these last few years and really helped a bih understand more and grow.

I am ever grateful for every opportunity and every gift. & this Podcast was certainly that.

Big love always to my beloved colleague, fellow author, writer, bad ass Scorpio witch and friend, Kat.

Give thanks for our queer family tree that’s been growin from AOL online/chat room times (yeah we old-ish) lol. I’m hella grateful for such a wonderful opportunity. That shit was hella fun.

Syncere, Guest Host. The Joyful Experience Podcast, August, 2022

Listen To Full Podcast Here

Taurus season x Grad Nite

Queer

I wonder if it’s my 12H Sun or my Jupiter in Scorpio ♏️ as to why I (think) that I contemplate death and loss more than the average person. Hmm, contemplate is a strong word. I don’t consider it as taboo or hard to discuss as most people do.

But. I mean. We all have experienced or will experience loss in some form. & this is why I go so hard for presence. & intentionality. Because not a single moment or thing is promised to any of us.

I remember when we finally were able to go through the garage (recently built a new home, and shit just ends up in the garage…like, all the things end up there 😮‍💨) so getting to go through stuff properly and notice the amount of things that were able to be salvaged and saved from Hurricane Dorian 🌀 puts shit into perspective.

Because thank the universe/god/the ancestors protection that the lives of my mum…ok basically everyone and I do mean EVERYONE on my Mum side of the family would have been gone.

The magnitude of that storm over that island (& Abaco)…if it had remained over the island any longer…I would have lost all of my family on that side. They lost their vehicles, their homes and the amount of trauma the have from that whole situation; from seeing the dead bodies of your neighbors floating by you, as the water rose and you had to flee to a nearby fire station…which also became overcrowded and flooded…the stories I’ve heard…Losing things don’t feel like shit when you almost lose your life.

Perspective like a mf.

“Don’t sweat the small stuff” is cliche asf…but like…yeah, no don’t. Life is too finite for that

So. Grad Nite, yes. My Disney Grad Nite photo album was saved. Wild. Can’t even recall most of that weekend, tbh. Or my HS “experience.” I was in a weird place. Forced assimilation via immigration. But…freedom, nonetheless, a?

I don’t recall being much of a person back then. I recall being what I was supposed to be, told to be, taught to be. No voice. No personality. A shell. Under the roof of a staunch Christian and full time witch…but not the good kind.

Who loved to gossip & report my every move to not only my mum, but everyone back home in the family. Wild. Lmao. I’ve come a long ass fucking way from that life!

Shit! All I can do is give thanks. For the being that I am now-knowing what I had to emerge from. Some Kafka shit-sans the bug. I’ll take a caterpillar 🐛 instead. That morphed into the wolf 🐺 don’t be a judge Judy- transformation is and looks different for everyone. This my journey. Back to what was saved. The Grad Nite album

Umm, what else…oh! my Baptism or Christening (is that the same thing? Idk I was a baby, I didn’t have a choice on my attendance) dress. My HS graduation gown. Some random trophy’s from tennis 🎾 to a math award (boy do I have a back story on that award 🥇 😎) My Scholastic, extracurricular resume which…I don’t even remember what tf I needed a resume for back then 🧐 oh another random photo album I made before I moved away…some old toys (not that kind-I left at a young age)

& one of the things I appreciate about my Taurus ass mutha, was her intentions of me seeing and having Black dolls (which I never played with but I did play with the Lego sets and Tonka trucks 😂) but my joints had skin that looked like mine. She was real G for that.

Oh. My Jordan doll from NKOTB…umm, don’t act like they wasn’t the shit back then.

Pls NKOTB used to slap!

Sooooo. how tf does this all connect?

It’s Taurus season. Taurus themes: what we value. Friday is ruled by Venus..which is the ruler of Taurus. All things align ✨

Welcome to the (heartbreak) Hotel California

Queer

I originally wrote this for my Instagram account, but I figured…why not share the wealth across platforms.

🌍

Earth placements, y’all alright?

Honorable mention: Pisces placements.
♓️

When it comes to going above and beyond…to the point of self sacrifice, you gotta cut off the shenanigans.

When you find yourself doing more, giving more, extending yourself more…that’s where learning healthy boundaries comes into play.

Bc don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with being a caring, kind, generous, loving, giving person, but just make sure that same grace is also extended to you, from those we intentionally share with.

I once read something that said:
“Loving someone harder will not make them change.”

& that was some of the realest shit I ever read.
We do sometimes break our own hearts, but we also have the ability to call back energies and break those agreements that allowed us to accept less than we deserve.

Shit, it’s all a part of growing, learning and unlearning. & when you know better you (hopefully) do better and make better decisions. & that’s on ancestor Angelou 🙏🏿✨
~Syn