I initially created this video/edit clip back when the Pisces Full Moon was doing its thing, but yanno…I was just speaking to a friend of mine from Montreal (who happens to be a professional astrologer) & she was telling me about all this Neptune energy rn and we are both ready for Aries season! No offense to the fish (I’m a Pisces rising, calmate) but the fog, the illusion, the blehhhhhh and hella emotions x being perpetually tired…
A love, a vibe, a connection. An undeniable fact:
Always
“As” by Stevie Wonder
(Until the trees and seas just up and fly away)
Always
(Until the day that eight times eight times eight is four)
Always
(Until the day that is the day that are no more)
Did you know you’re loved by somebody
(Until the day the earth starts turnin’ right to left)
Always
(Until the earth just for the sun denies itself)
I’ll be lovin’ you forever
(Until dear mother nature says her work is through)
Always
(Until the day that you are me and I am you)
Always
(Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky
Until the ocean severs every mountain high)
Always mm mm
A love. A bliss. A connection. Joy.…feelings, emotions & logic: all in alignment. And remembering the dream, the gift that is love requires no additional thought. Just feel.
I’ve been off from work for a few hours. & enjoying music from a time before. & the incomparable Mr. Wonder is playing on my Spotify playlist, “O.Geez”
Plus.
The temps and weather right now…is weathering
Yeah the temps rn on this particular island…is feeling like the temps in one of my favourite places to live: the Bay Area.
So. I’m happy. My fellow islanders, not so much 😂 but I love it and it feels great. Matter the fact, it feels/aligns with and matches my mood. Good asf. I love it. Give thanks. For a whole lotta tings, but rn, especially music. & especially this gratitude and genuine love that I am blessed and inundated with. Yeah. Alluhdat.
Morning glory
When I don’t get excited & am rather indifferent when seeing your name viewing my IG Story
Placed her back in the appropriate category
Online acquaintance
Self care also means spiritual + energetic maintenance
Life is amazing. I mean, of course it’s not perfect.
I have my very human moments of overthinking, anxiety…have you seen (been living in) the state of the world? Depression. Relationships with people you love dearly that need adjustment, or disengagement. & learning (doing your best 😬) to give yourself the same grace and compassion you extend to others. & simply navigating life and the world as a queer Black person.
I mean…
yeah.
Life be Lifeing.
But, the Sun always shines again…even if it ain’t tomorrow.
Some shit ain curable in a day let’s bffr.
But.
However…it does eventually.
And what a refreshing feeling.
It’s like…taking Lessons in Breathing*
Until it once again becomes automatic
Natural.
Beautiful.
Abundant Life all around you.
And.
Love ALL around you-
no longer sustaining oneself from a single source
that wasn’t you.
You appreciate the beautiful blues and remember that they are the same hues
As a tropical sky
Beauty:
Is
Within the eye
👁
Of the beholder.
What you believe
What you perceive
Your thoughts and thinking becoming things
Beloved…
Remember the sunshine. Do your best.
*shout out to the amazing Slam Poet Theresa Davis & her life-changing poem (She brought tears to my eyes during several different performances of this poem back in Atlanta)
“Breathing Lessons”
I no longer wish to subscribe to,
participate in
Or be…ripped to shreds
By: this generational curse
Look at what you done to me
You put a gun to me
Then you brought the Sun to me.
“Stay Ready” (What A Life) by Jhene Aiko featuring Kendrick Lamar
Your proverbial gun led me to the Sun
& my way out of the darkness
It was…acceptance
Grief. Every stage
It seemed like, all…in one day
Give thanks. That contrast begets clarity
Producing astonishing colours & never to be to duplicated art-
These tears
cleansing this cycle of insanity
Offering more love
&,
offering more of…broken trust
Thrown back to me
Adorned on a golden, Venusian platter
I will always choose love…over the latter
I choose my peace, over this natural disaster
Protection and self preservation
And.
I can’t heal a wound, whilst allowing it to be constantly re-injured.
Saturn.
Pisces.
Retrograde, natal.
And if your goals include healing, growth, &/or moving on from things, people, substances, escapism. . .etc that don’t fuel your best, nor well-interest, higher good or well-being…
You know what it is. Nouns: person, place or tings.
Release what is no longer yours to carry & never forget that Your journey is personal. And healing isn’t linear.
Love & above ☝🏾 ✨
~Syn
Oh. Here is an article on Saturn in Pisces by Chani Nicholas (also where the post image is from). She’s one of the professional astrologers that I follow on a couple socials:
Ok…am I trippin? No, I’m an Aquarius. Because…
Season 5, Episode 7 of GOT.
This is the part where Bran, aka, The Three Eyed Raven, turns into a warg and is flying with his conspiracy of ravens to see bout the Night King and that big ass army of White Walkers.
So…I can drag a story along (Air sign tings, lol) bc initially in my head this post was 2 sentences or so max! That didn’t happen!
Well the TTER 🦅 is surveying the scene..and I notice this castle up against this massive wall-& I go 🤔 this can’t be Castle Black 🏰 to scale against that wall?! Maybe it’s The Shadow Tower or Eastwatch-by-the-Sea idk, but damn!
I’ve never paid attention to this particular scene & this has to be my 4th time watching this series. I do have a tendency to skip certain parts to get to my favourite scenes, lolol. So I’ll be peepin new shit every time I rewatch this, til infinity, lol. I don’t mind. I’m discovering new shit every time 🤷🏾♂️
The size of that castle against the wall in that scene. That wall. & where my brain went was like:
🤔 What if that thick ass Antarctic wall was like that, too?
THEN! my brain went to that song by Goodie Mob, “Cell Therapy” and these lyrics by CeeLo:
Me and my family moved in our apartment complex
A gate with the serial code was put up next…
But every now and then,
I wonder if the gate was put up to keep crime out or to keep our ass in
That thick ass and heavily guarded & heavily surveilled (it’s true, look it up) Antarctic wall…is like that to also keep our ass in-
& out of Agartha.
Ok. That was the point. Yeah, after all that, lolol.
Back to my tings. I’ve cleaned, put away laundry, went grocery shopping to that new-ish Solomon’s downtown…back to my comfort, & my kinda peace on this good overcast Saturday mawnin 🤘🏿
Oh. & if you so happen to not have heard or not know (how dare you this is a classic!) bout one of thee ILLEST songs to ever be created, ima bless ya life today:
Comfort. Romancing the (rose quartz) stone.. Highest regard.
An external home with safekeeping and the warmest embrace.
The sweetest taboo…No ordinary love…Sade
A trusted, safe space.
Complete safety; emotionally and otherwise.
Ease. Flow.
Love and respect that never ceases or dissipates regardless of a disagreement
Or temporary static.
Comfort in the midst of temporary contrast…that gifts us with more clarity.
Understanding.
Empathy.
Compassion.
A love expounded
Love, compounded.
Real Love, bby.
~Syn
Just got back in the house after filling up buckets of water and toting them into the belly of the beast- aka where the fire behind mine and my neighbors homes are. There are a couple hot spots left but I just doused them in water and hosed/sprayed 🚿 the shit outta those areas and the green vicinity.
This is a continuation of my adventures from yesterday in being an amateur firefighter when your actual one’s aren’t available/around/understaffed etc.
Yeah. Myself and my neighbors had a time from about…I wanna say 6pm yesterday when the wind blew the “small bush fire” that was 6 houses down, directly behind several of our homes.
& that bitch was mean. I mean…raging at times.
Kinda reminds you of an Aries…or a Taurus if they get to that point 🤬
I digress. Fun night (not at all) but very grateful that we are all safe as well as our homes/property/animals. Give thanks all day.
This post was initially not about me learning the importance of controlled burns and clearing the bush behind your property annually. But yeah no…Lessons acquired.
& I also gotta big up my neighbors because we really all came together and made sure the other was ok and helped water each other’s lawns while the actual fires were being blown closer to our properties and the embers were blowing in the trees, grass, roof…
Ok but…aside from that, here’s why the eff I started this entry:
I read something just now that said, “find your missing piece” in regards to dating/relating.
& my immediate thought after I rolled my eyes was:
I am my missing piece.
-me
Ain no way ima go around proclaiming and affirming to the Universe that I am incomplete or missing something, if I’m not attached to or coupled with someone. That’s wild as hell. Sounds like some serious spelling tbh; you making an agreement (and lk 🔑 putting a spell on yaself) by thinking and believing that someone else has to complete you. Shit. You gon be searching forever (outside of yourself) for something that you are responsible for;
i.e.
Completeness and wholeness externally
Your own happiness/bliss.
Ngl to you, I been there, too. Could’ve written a book!
But. Give thanks for growth! and learning that was a false premise.
Yeah. That’s all I got, rn. I’m lk 🔑 exhausted from being alert & up all night/morning watching the smoke & bush behind the house.
Nonetheless, I had to take a quick moment to write that last part. Didn’t think I was gonna talk about the first part, tbh. & here we are 😎
Life…is wild. & crazy beautiful. Give thanks.
& That Natalie Imbruglia wybe: Just leave me alone
Yo.
No matter how many times I say it: “Come correct, or don’t come at all,”motherfuckers steady coming, lol.
If you can’t, if you are unable to give me the love that I need in this particular type of relationship dynamic, leave me tf alone.
I am graciously accepting and loving this life of peace & blessings that I have cultivated for myself so I would rather not allow half assed love/half ass attempts and especially not breadcrumbing. That shit is for birds.
I am no ones “option.” I am a priority; just as I would make the person in my life a priority.
So…I’ma say it again. Come correct or don’t come tf at all because it will not turn out well if you step into this sanctuary, with dirty feet.
& attempt to receive this abundant, beautiful, bountiful, healthy ass love from me-whilst not even being able to meet me halfway?
Half steppin just won’t work. & the way my 7th house is set up with those planets…We can make love or make war, it’s your choice. But I promise, I won’t be the mad one. & no one’s bullshit ass crumbs will steal my joy or disrupt my life. Them days over, bby. My peace is paramount & I will protect it.
Usually…well, I don’t think I made a post last year But I would post something about my B’EarthDay on my IG feed…but this year? Ine into dat. I just…am realizing that I’m not much of a fan of having my personal life up for public consumption. Been posting less and less personal stuff on the socials for a while now. I’m accepting that this is the most comfortable and balanced I feel. So yeah no
But I will post here. No personal images or videos…but, gratitude. Which is enough for me. My cup runneth over ✨
I treat myself (I do my best-some days not so much) and am treated wonderfully by the Universe, my fam and dearest loves/loved ones.
Every day.
& In the ways that I show up for myself. The foods I intentionally consume and those that I stay away from. The intentional ways that I practice body movement, breathing exercises, take the time to meditate and incorporate healthier ways of being. Sticking to my morning routines. The ways that I speak to myself (the intrusive thoughts, too cuz I can overthink like a mf sometimes) but. Also what I allow and no longer allow. Having and sticking with my healthy boundaries. The life that I have cultivated that is inundated with peace. Abundance. & love. I am so much more aware of and grateful for my life and life in general.
I am extended thee most beautiful and divine love; stemming from my closest humans, to acquaintances and strangers alike.
I am grateful for every human that crosses my path. Whether it be for a reason, season &/or a lifetime…all tings align.
But yeah man..I’m just gonna continue on this path and gracefully and humbly accept all this beautiful ass love and life that I get to experience. It’s a blessing every day above ground.
Granted, some days that’s a lil hard to remember…because: being human. & Shit sucks sometimes…like shit 😂 but man. This ride has been wild af, like bat shit wild some of the things I’ve seen/lived/experienced…what a life. From ATL to the Bay. & errywhere in between…
I’ve had my share of setbacks, setups (ill-intentioned people, envious/jealous people will teach you A Lot of priceless gems and teach you how to better navigate life cuz it’s a lot of them mf’s in it) heartache and heartbreak…& I wouldn’t change that shit for anything. All it did was gift me with experience, lessons, wisdom, shadow work, discernment, a therapist! 😂😂 and the list continues with a whole lot of beautiful ass blessings along the way.
It led me here . To me. As I am now. I’m grateful af. Cuz it and I am only getting better and better. Refinement. More life 🥂 Give thanks ✨
I really wanted to post this to remind myself just how beautiful (& paramount) authentic connection really is. I saw this video of Lauren London describing her ideal or a great date and I was like
& so. I did a quick lil mashup video with LL’s words and a tweet I found also reflective of my views/desires.
Authentic & genuine connection is very important to me. I once read something that said, “I don’t care if you’ve climbed Mount Everest or if you’ve never left your home town. The kind of love & how you give/receive/share love is what matters most” & I couldn’t agree more.
And!
Being able to kick it with my person, laugh, joke, sing off key together…just being able to enjoy my person as they are, is what I’m here for. I absolutely believe in the foundation of friendship & the utmost respect for one another in all moments. Having conversations about Agartha, to Game of Thrones, Insecure to to CRT. Free Palestine to the massacre of Saint Valentine, AI to Climate change…I’m here for all of it.
& being a Sagittarius Moon and MC…traveling is one of my most favourite things. So. Someone who I can travel with (because news flash, errybody ain’t for everyting and some people make horrible travel companions). But yeah. You gotta know yourself man. What you like/don’t like. What brings you joy. Shit that sets your soul on fire. Because if you can align with someone who adds to that flame and doesn’t try to (inadvertently or not) dim it…golden.
Know yaself. Love yourself. So you can return that same energy to another. I have a whole lot more shit to say, but also a meeting to attend. So.
You know…as I go through life and I meet new interesting, fascinating, amazing human beings it amazes me every single time when I come across people who go from relationship to relationship to relationship without any time in between.
Time for yourself. To heal. To deal. Time for self reflection, introspection, self actualization…shit any reflection in general, having time to breathe and process without adding an additional energy to your mix.
Someone once ended a 15+ year relationship (2 women) and by day 3, my friend was dating someone else. I’m just like 😳 because how does one do that…
I mean…yes, you’re getting experience because you’re experiencing other people in relationships and having to navigate the highways & byways of that going on…but like…to not ever spend ANY time alone is so wild to me.
I can’t even fathom mixing up someone new energy-with all that lingering energy and unprocessed shit from the last person/relationship.
& I think it also must be my 12H placements talking because I be needing all the space and all the time to get my shit/self together. Before, during and after dealing with someone in that capacity, especially.
Only, then.
…only, if it feels sacred.
Like our bodies in motion…are in meditation.
Worshiping the Divine within one another.
Only then.
I was inspired to write those words. And reminded of connection. Divine order. & not fighting the Universe, ourselves or each other. No.
Only…complete Surrender. To love. Only, then.
Because fear. Feeding crumbs.
I want More. The heavens, cosmos. & beyond.
Only, then.
-Syn
Queer, Gifted & Black 