Etta James every day

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I do my best to wake up not only peacefully, but as I open my eyes and rise to a new day, give thanks for it. Give thanks for all the things and human beings in my life. I also do my best to not immediately check emails or social media. I didn’t say that I was perfect at it, I said I do my best. But more often than not, I prevail against the machine. I’ve been taking extended breaks from the likes of Instagram (don’t fuck with FB or Tiktok) and unplugging from the always connected and very disconnected social media Matrix.

As a creator and artist, in the beginning, this was hard to do. Because you realize that once you start sharing your creations and art, people expect you to be on there and posting every day. Or reply to every DM, every collab request, every single thing…on their time (meaning right away) Some things require more urgency, & if it’s my people/friends, that’s different I hit them right back when I get back on, but for the most part…nah. I really had to check myself and check in with myself with my relationship to social media. I realized that the energy of always being online-from waking up first thing and checking your phone and being on it all day had become sort of a fucked up ritual. & acknowledging that social media is intentionally designed to become addictive, I had to change my habits and relationship to it. There came a point that it was so much, that I turned off all of my notifications on everything, and I never turned them back on (such peace).

Cuz some folks really have the audacity to be in my DM’s asking me why I don’t post on a regular schedule or post more content. As if they spend the time, energy, etc. themselves to create it. wild. & It wasn’t until recently that I was introduced to human design and found out that I am what is known as a Manifesting Generator. That shit is actually pretty on brand when you research it. Because it confirmed my own modus operandi when dealing with sharing/creating and social media: I only post when I am moved to do so. When I am inspired and lit up with energy to do so. I treat my art and creating like I do my connections: never force them.

I respond and act. & so now I extend that energy into other areas of my life that also need tending to. Pulling back from the socials (not Twitter, I love twitter, lol. I also intentionally don’t have the convenience of the app. Gimme some credit) has really been beneficial to my intentions of being more present, centered and grounded. Connecting more with myself, my humans and the Earth. That in itself is it’s own kind of love story. A Sunday kind of love story that I will never take for granted again.

What Does A Sunday Kind Of Love Look/Feel Like? (this is my own personal experience)

It's gratitude before you even get outta bed. 
It's making sure you oil pull (on designated days)
It's drinking warm spring water with citrus before anything
Body movement, exercise and stretching
Grounding
No more latte's and coffee, but instead herbal teas
Fresh fruits for breaking fast; consuming fruits with seeds
It's taking time outta the day to smell the flowers and the sea breeze
It's...solfeggio frequencies
having my own and respecting others boundaries
Flow, never forcing
and meditation
sun salutations, touching the Earth with bare feet and sun bathing
It's...therapy sessions
journaling and learning
continuing the great unlearn-
of habits
& outdated practices and ways that we don't show up for ourselves
It's...thinking better (more positive) thoughts
& not taking shit personally (seriously, read The Four Agreements)
It's living my life as authentically as possible
It's...having faith that what is aligned for my highest good (& the highest good of all involved) manifests harmoniously and in divine time
it's...relinquishing control and knowing that I am only responsible for how I show up
It's giving and sharing love, sans expectations or attachments to outcomes
It's showing up and being present with and for loved ones
checking in on your loved ones
especially the ones like myself who have always been labelled "the strong ones"

& remembering that we also deserve the same love, care and concern that we give to others. It’s also not trying to be everything for everybody else, especially without checking in on self-first. It’s declining dinner dates and lunch meetings to take that time to just be…with me. In my past I was ALWAYS on the go. Always doing something. Be it for work or for the social life. & there was never a healthy balance. I was hella successful and accomplished…and also depleted. I needed to see that life had so much more meaning; & is meant to not only be lived, but experienced. So. I changed some shit up.

Started meditating and that was such a game changer (& of course disconnecting from responding and scrolling all the time). & re-connected with my past loves that I neglected in the process. My love for art, writing, music, books, nature…and family life. Being a Life path 4, Capricorn Venus and South Node, I did not take the time that I should have to connect with them because I was too busy building and expanding on my American Dream…so there was no time for them (my partner, my family). Or rather, I made no time for them because truth is…there ‘s always a choice. Until a natural disaster struck and made sure that was no longer the case. I was forced to slow down and recalibrate. This drastic change made way for a new chapter-shit, I say a whole ass new book in my own personal legend (if personal legend stuck out to you, you’re really smart and have read The Alchemist).

1 of my favourite books

This new book gave me back my memory. Of what it is to be/feel free. To contribute in more ways than 1, to my family tree. To love openly and honestly. That vulnerability is bae. It taught, (well, still is teaching me) about the importance of valuing and nourishing my connections. & to never again neglect self, or them. I feel extremely grateful and blessed to be here in this space and place of growth. & the actions that I take, the moves I make…all of the roads now stem from love. A Sunday kind of love, everyday.

Call It…“Robert”

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At the family function

Vibin,

& big cuz on the music has the gumption

To step

In the name of love

Based on general consensus, not assumption

That it’s ok

To play

The pedophile on the 1 & 2’s

Cuz for years uncle Andy been the elephant in the room

& Has groomed

Several cousins to touch his trunk

Yet

we here

It’s a family affair

we vibe, we get drunk

On denial

that we house, we protect, we refuse to hold accountable our own familial pedophiles

Swept under the rug

We continue the waltz;

1, 2…1, 2

step in the name of love

Electric slide then cupid shuffle into generational trauma

The old timers

Sip their wine

Sip their gin

Andy grins

& once again is welcomed in

To acceptance:

“It’s just music”

to the ➡️

“Shhh, stop bringing up old shit, don’t be a nuisance”

Pipeline

We just tryna have a good time…

Stepping in the name of love

Stepping all over the bones and ashes…innocence & trust

“Hey, shut up”

The Killers

Among us reside in our village…