Love, love is a verb
Love is a doing word…fearless on my breath“Teardrop” by Massive Attack
No mf notes.
Ofc I’m gonna keep talking. Because I’m currently listening to this song on my playlist called:
Romancing the (rose quartz) Stone
& it triggered a core memory of gayness. Story time:
*also good to remember: In other peoples stories, projections and perceptions of you; you will be a hero to some, & the villain & big bad wolf to others. Try not to take it too personally. We are being perceived from so many angles at times, people forget to search the Source-themselves first. I mean, we play our parts, according to our own awareness right? Lessons & shit we need to learn? Well. Some people are just shitty, horrible people & they’re quite aware of it 😂
When I first heard this beautiful ass, long ass song…ine ga lie, my shit was blown 🤯 bc it was so perfectly sung and executed..a piece of my soul felt cracked open. It felt like I was levitating. Also my soft ass (grateful for this placement tho, lk 🔑) Pisces ♓️ rising fell ALL the way in love with the lyrics. The thought & possibility of loving & being loved this thoroughly, openly & deep again..i. Well, back to the song.
The Line. How can you not help but to feel shit upon hearing it? It’s almost haunting, right before he begins the first verse. & that moaning/mumble singing in the background-that longing, an undeniable love that is being boldly proclaimed… Love that stretches from the heavens and extends from the Cosmos, down to where the light will never touch- in the depths of the deepest ocean.
& that feeling continues throughout the entirety of the song. So to say that I played it a million times, would be a lie. It was 2 million 😂
The lyrics…I really can go on about this song forever. But I need to take my ass to bed. So back to the 🏳️🌈 memory:
I was invited to a family dinner with a group of us lgbtq folx, thrown by my friend who happens to be an amazing award winning Chef, & her fiancée. The food was being laid out & presented so beautifully & being that her fiancée is also a music head, she decided that it was time to “put us on”.
I told them that they HAD to hear that song 🎵 that I was currently obsessed with. They indulged me (bc my musical taste is awesome 👅)
I played that track. Everyone stopped what they were doing and sat there. Fast forward a few weeks later & I get a phone call from them both, thanking me for helping them select the perfect song for their wedding (told ya my taste was awesome 😂) & at the actual ceremony when they played the song…it was forever etched into my soul; a song of love everlasting, shared by two souls vowing to embrace, support & love one another…& knowing the love that those two humans have for each other…makes it even more beautiful & meaningful. This song allowed me to witness and be a part of all that magical, radical ass love. Give thanks.
I no longer grip
& hold on to things & people so tight
That I lose myself, if
it, or they take flight
Me & You.Queer
Love, without the heartbreak. Yessi
Not taking things personally is an art; and it’s one that I love and adore.
But don’t get me wrong, I would not be keeping it 💯 if I said I don’t take shit personally sometimes.
I just do it a lot less now. & because of it, I have A LOT more peace.
Listen, I’m not tryna tell you what to do or nutn
But all I’m saying is sit with it/your thoughts when you have a moment of stillness & peace.
Now if you think about it, and things that people do, or shit that they say tend to rub you the wrong way a lot of times?
Or do you end up with hurt feelings or pissed off frequently, because of something somebody said or did or DIDN’T do…
Read The Four Agreements. I started with the chapter that said “don’t take anything personally” because that’s what my (water rising) ass needed the most, lol. All of it is good.
Tings I into x AB 🕊✨Queer
I’m interested in authentic connection… A life filled with an abundance of love, art/music , travel, romance.
Hand written poetry
Fucking your soul into the Cosmos
& co-creating love, to “Say Yes” by Floetry
Midnight soaks in a clawfoot tub
Love letters to, and from my love…
& Writing love letters to life…by simply living & experiencing it. & doing my best to not ever take any of it for granted.
I have such a habit-of digressing. Back to this blessing [Life]
& tings I into
Traveling the world on a foodie & culturally centered type itinerary
Easy, like Sunday Morning
Lionel Richie Rich
in love, life, experience
Adventuring, learning & expanding
appreciating every step & every person
Every ting…along this path
Is for my growth and advancement
I like slow meals and a slow dance
That continues to expand
Locally led food tours
via 711 horses
Hiking in the jungle, to freshly foraged ingredients
Breaking bread, crossing cultures
Ancestral wisdom & veneration of lineage
Exchanging energy, history, love & community, appreciating (there goes that gratitude again. I’m telling ya, it really changes & shifts shit) but yeah.
🌍 Connection ✨
Volunteering, serving, giving back in some capacity, as I visit each country.
No matter what town or city, I’m always grateful to Be.
Thankful to see a new day, let alone a new horizon, perspective, & hemisphere.
Love…is always in my ear
and always in this Air-
With a water rising
Jupiter approved to make moves
temporary wipeouts (thanks Saturn) the wave is always smoothe..
Cuz, it’s the peace of knowing I’m always where I’m meant to be
& Doing what I’m meant to do.
Acknowledging that change is the only constant
& happiness, love, peace, bliss, etc. comes from within
You are your own Hero & Saviour-it’s up to you whether you sink or swim
In Frank Oceans
I am the medicine, I am the spell, I am the potion
I am the Source
& aligned with Source?
The force (alignment + magick ✨) is strong in this one.
& living life to the fullest, on my own fucking terms 🤟🏿
I had such a tremendous experience(s) this weekend. So much love. So much celebrating. So much quality time with people I don’t get to spend time with that often. It was simply beautiful.
& Also, TONS of work prepping for the ting. Being 1000% present & attentive during the ting.
After a successful, & I do mean full, day (week+ prep) celebrating the woman who helped anchor me to this world…I’m exhausted. Very grateful and very full (love, gratitude, community) and this morning I was prompted to slow tf down.
Please believe this was a v painful (thanks Saturn) reminder as I was carrying the bags of leftover 🗑 to the curb-think, cans, beer & wine bottles) I did some maneuver that was the wrong fucking way to maneuve 🤨 (move) apparently 😂 but that last bag sent me to my doctors office this morning.
& so, 1 steroid shot and a couple of prescriptions later, here I am.
Im actually writing in bed. Wondering if this shit gonna kick in to full gear or stall at 80%. Well. Grateful for everything that led me here, still. Cuz all that work and energy was absolutely worth it.
If being away from my family for 20+ years has taught me anything, it’s to cherish your fucking moments and especially, your people. So. I will never regret showing up and showing tf out, for my love, fam & friends. People should know (ofc not just on 1 day outta the year, no) consistently feel and know how much you care for and love them. We are placed here to love. & to enjoy ourselves-whatever tf that might look like to you.
& as I recognize the lessons in real time more and more now, I’m grateful for the shit. Cuz it only helps make me better.
You gotta be it, to receive it (authentically)
& give it to yourself first, before ever trying to replenish your well.
Be your own water. You the well, too.
🤔 I think the muscle relaxer & anti inflammatory 💊 kickin in, lolol. That’s all the epiphanies from me (fa now 😎)
[Sometimes] Love…The Universe always conspiresQueer
Before words were ever uttered
She looked into me
& claimed me
damn, your eyes…
& we never belonged to anything ever again, after that night
Lust + Stardust
Music/Media/Books (tings) Related to this post/my feels:
- Book: The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
- Song: Knock You Down by Keri Hilson
- The Universe/Stars/Cosmos n shit…& the fact that we are made of stars.
- Song: Damn Your Eyes by Etta James
- Eclipse season (happening now)
- Song: Stardust by Lavva & Fr33sol & Earf
The ruin..of many a poor BoiQueer
I know I’m one-The House of the Rising Sun
I’m talking bout Karmic relationships, karmic ties, soulmates, etc. Yeah. All dem, lolol
Has been the…well I wouldn’t say my ruin, but the stress, the drama 🎭 and extra shit that’ll have you like:
The heartache and heartbreak; which is, tbh, sometimes self inflicted when we exaggerate someone’s presence and their place in our lives- yeah, been there, not doing that again.
Or, when we make these temporary lessons in passing…our forever person.
Your everything was sposed to simply be the thing that reminded you not to follow the same path or patterns.
We, drawn to our karmic past lifetimes like a magnet, attract these folx and get into romantic relationships with them, when they was sposed to just be the lesson, or a even a reminder, personified.
We really should’ve just kept it cool, kept it cute & kept it pushin- & not have romantic or sexual (did you know there’s something called sexual soulmates? Thought that was cool) ties to them this go round.
Merry. And Mary.
Twin Flame/Karmic Lover/Ex Forecast: Circles and cloudy.
A time. Once again, Mercury rx is almost fully upon us. Ask for clarity. & discernment, bby.
No rushing (Junkanoo)Queer
You know…it’s the small things, seemingly little things like… just the way I live my life now:
I don’t have to rush for things.
I’m never in a rush to do anything. Like before- in the past things seemed so “life or death” or “now or never”and I get it. Some shit is urgent, some tings are on a time crunch. But in general? my life, is not. The way I move in the world now, is not. & I’m so gd grateful.
Especially as a Life path 4 & heavy Saturn ruled person-plus- I have a Virgo Mars 🙂 I was born puttin in work 😂
So. To get out of my own work hard, work harder mode, took some…yep, you guessed it: work 😂
But damn I’m truly grateful to be here now: Flow. Alignment.
And whilst we are here, lemme bless ya life wit some actual Junkanoo rushing from our beautiful island nation 🇧🇸
energetic transitions x SadeQueer
Yo. Ima need y’all to play “Paradise” by Sade.
Because this line specifically:
Oooh, what a life
Is my modus operandi- as I count my blessings (can’t really, they’re innumerable) and recount the amount of joy, bliss, blessings, and I mean…just miraculous ass shit-that is my life.
What a time.
What a ride.
What a life.
I’m so grateful. The lives that I’ve lived…the things I’ve been able to experience…wow. Give thanks.
Don’t leave this plane with regrets. Try/do your best. And fucking remember to LIVE while you are alive. Life is so beautiful and there is so much to see, so many wonderful beings (human & animal) that you will encounter-that will continue to unlock more levels to your life story.
No one is sent to you, to us by accident. I have been and am absolutely blessed to have lived the way I live. To love the way I love. & to be loved. To be seen. Heard. Adored. Cared for, by the people that have come into my life.
And ofc not everyone was all good, had the best intentions, etc. but they were (& are, haters gonna hate forever I think) invaluable to me. Because their dishonesty, their betrayal, the hurt and tears that I have cried over some of them…was/is never in vain.
First of all, tears are healing. We are our own personal waterfall.
& these folks taught me some invaluable lessons; about life, myself and other human beings as we relate to one another. So. I call em lessons in growing and knowing your worth. Discernment. & keeping certain energies away from you and your aura.
Ok. Less time on them folx and more on love.
& I knowwwwwww (trust me I know) this cliché as fuck, but you gotta love yourself. Cuz once you really get there; to the core, down to your roots…you start living in your truth. You accept and love yourself & your authentic expression. And being grounded like that? With a healthy self concept…that’s a magickal ass place to be.
The love and respect that you have for yourself, will be reflected in your relationships. It affects who and what you align with.
And. What you tolerate and allow. Or don’t.
These connections will either nourish and sustain us, as we grow, evolve and age.
Or, will they drain us; our life force and energy.
Surround yourself with peace. & people who feel like home. Who you can absolutely be yourself around-there is no letting hair down. Cuz it was that way when you walked in the door.
Life is to precious and finite to feel discomfort in someone’s presence-based on familiarity, association, time spent..nah
The quality of your friendships and relationships in general, mirror the quality of your life I think.
And as someone who is 11th House ruled (my Aquarius sun + my Capricorn Venus is in the 11th) I have made/formed/created/sustained some pretty beautiful and bad ass connections & relationships with many wonderful humans from all walks of the planet (I’m also a Sagittarius moon 🛫)
To say I’ve lived a very…interesting (but fun, also enlightening, etc) life- from Atlanta to California and so many places in between and outside of that…is definitely an understatement. It’s been wild (not always the good kind 😂) but a hellova ride nonetheless and I take none of it for granted.
Looking forward to the new chapters of this book 😎🤙🏿
The biggest boss…love to see it. I’m for it.
That’s really one of the principles of be who who wish to see. Cuz, from that…to this? Yeah.
The Secret…some know it. Acknowledge.
Other laws. Digging deeper and applying.
This is that.
Day Dreaming to NeptuneQueer
I initially created this video/edit clip back when the Pisces Full Moon was doing its thing, but yanno…I was just speaking to a friend of mine from Montreal (who happens to be a professional astrologer) & she was telling me about all this Neptune energy rn and we are both ready for Aries season! No offense to the fish (I’m a Pisces rising, calmate) but the fog, the illusion, the blehhhhhh and hella emotions x being perpetually tired…