“How old are you?”
I divulge my age.
“I would have never guessed that…because you look nineteen! And you speak as if you’re in your 40’s or 50’s.”
I just…I was fast tracked into a lot of growth over a short span of time; mentally and spiritually.
For me, before my awakening, I was SO stubborn, so selfish/SO stuck on self that the Universe was like
“ok, looks like you will have to get it this time, by any means necessary.”
And that’s what I think helped shaped me into this being that I am now and am becoming. I had to go through breaking almost to what I thought was the point of no return.
To me. Where I was. I was broken. I had to come undone to become anything that I might Be.
Some of the lowest thoughts and I was at the lowest of lows.
I didn’t know who I was. I had let a relationship, or rather the ending of a relationship crumple me up like a piece of paper…
Trying to breathe
Trying to see- because my eyes became rivers
Flooding my existence and drowning my being in sorrow.
I didn’t think about tomorrow
I didn’t think
I didn’t think about, The Divine
It was the right time
I had be that piece of paper crumbled up
At that point…
If you can imagine this:
A tiny microscopic organism trying to unravel the entire sheet of paper from within.
That was the fight!