*exhaling* This was tough to write/edit/see/read/share/be…

14 going on 15
Takes shot gun
To school
& starts aiming
At pretty girl and pretty boys

14 going on 15
Can make a lot of noise-

When boys
and girls & gym teacher
Call him “girl”

They say strong things like:

You queer!
Look at what you wear!

He has no jordans or no gucci
No Louis
Just blue jeans
From 3 siblings
prior

“Ha ha ha ha” they will all be on fire

…the day prior
He ate his pb&j
On lunch break
A rock split his skin on the side of his face
Another slammed into his head

He bled
Where he sat
& they laughed and they spat
& he cried and they spat
He cringed
As the fire within him singed
They kicked & kicked
&

They punched him in the face
You fucking gay! That’s what you get!
Face.

faces

All peering
Faces
All staring
Fear
Shame
Tears
Dirt
Sweat..
He ran around the corner
As quiet as mouse
He tiptoed and entered his house
There he found mom & spouse
Passed out on the couch

His eyes searched for their crack pipes
Yes, they will be out like Lights

Her raced into the bedroom
Under the bed he found the families heirloom

A 45

He picked it up
He beat on his chest
He felt like a man!
He felt alive

Packed in backpack
He headed back
What you looking at Fag?
Im looking at You looking at lead
Bang!
Bang!
Bang!
Pretty girl and pretty boy, shot in the head.
Can you feel it???
This baby!
His pain!

Innocence

turned to RAGE
What he was thinking as he aimed!

How did we fail?
How do we keep failing our babies?

Bowling…bowling, bowling for